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maybe I’ll pay someone to love me

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sometimes I wish that I never existed

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how long until I’m all gone ?

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Hi. I’m fucked up.

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do you ever just feel .. stuck ?

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I don’t know who I am anymore

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when I cry, normally I have a reason, but lately I do it to give myself a feeling

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How do you still have this power over me ?

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I go days without thinking about you and then there’s some where you’re the only thing on my mind

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I hate that I’m still crying over you

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I wasn’t even an afterthought was I ?

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Because of you I felt joy, I felt happiness and love and safe and excitement and comfort, but I also felt worthless and used and sad, hurt, lonely and confused.

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Here’s the thing.
I loved you.

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I will never hate someone for loving you but I will hate someone for taking you away from me when you made me happy.

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see your second love is always worse than your first because you go in with this sense of hope and wonder, thinking that this will be the one to not break your heart but unfortunately they’ll be the one who will destroy it.

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You don’t know this but I cry myself to sleep every night thinking about you.

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You don’t miss them. You miss the way they made you feel.

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I keep trying to replace you but it’s not working

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blah blah blah .. is the sound I hear you make when you’re talking

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I really need to take my own advice sometimes

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here’s the thing you are worthy and don’t let anyone , especially yourself tell you otherwise