There are a lot more ‘normal’ people he can go for that has a better personality than me. In my mind, if I keep showing a perfected version of myself, it might make him fear losing me bc he won’t get a ‘perfect’ body again. The main problem is that I make my weight everything
i am jealous of fat people who are so happy in relationships. They look so happy & they last so long.
i can’t comprehend that bc In my mind i have accepted that I am only accepted for love if i have a defined body and has an image of no insecurities. That image is made up from +
Seen as someone that as rolls during the deed and normal life stuff that involves showing my skin. I feel like if I let that go, he will see the flaws I have and think otherwise. I even think he might think that I am a normal person with fat. And that he might leave me bc +