cali

probably tryna lose weight• 22 years old and obsessed with myself• mental illness venting•venttwt

[Dean Winchester of edtwt @Jaws4sam]

I know it's a bad thing but come on
#edtwt

[timothy 𝜗𝜚 @littldiary]

i do not need fatspo when i have a mirror

[cali @copingwitheds]

me when I see a delicious looking drink that is zero cal zero sugar

[poppy 🍓 edtwt @211cals]

Canon event: trying on a cute outfit but never wearing it out cause you feel too fat

[ada ⟢ ruka of shedtwt @rukaofshedtwt]

so this fucking hit

[ali 𑣲 @ibuprofenbarbii]

airpod fell out of my ear but it stopped in my collarbone dent

[⦻ @r0ttendotc0m]

I found pictures of my own dead body on my phone

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

why did i let myself get fat again

[cali @copingwitheds]

you don’t gotta worry about me cheating. the only reason my phone is off limits is bc of this deranged acc

[☥ @rosiesrib]

first in my bloodline to be on edtwt

[🍦Sana ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི @sxnxcals]

whenever I think about eating, I just imagine seeing it going down the food tubes and suddenly I’m no longer hungry

[ru ♡ @ruscvre]

my brain :

[cali @copingwitheds]

if i am skinnier than you, I automatically won

[pαrisྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི @schifogirl]

when im having fun but then i remember my thighs touch so nothing is fun actually

[mei 𑣲 @kilo2calorie]

does anyone constantly daydream/fantasize about losing a lot of weight and people finally noticing . no just me? ok .

[cali @copingwitheds]

There are a lot more ‘normal’ people he can go for that has a better personality than me. In my mind, if I keep showing a perfected version of myself, it might make him fear losing me bc he won’t get a ‘perfect’ body again. The main problem is that I make my weight everything

[cali @copingwitheds]

i am jealous of fat people who are so happy in relationships. They look so happy & they last so long.
i can’t comprehend that bc In my mind i have accepted that I am only accepted for love if i have a defined body and has an image of no insecurities. That image is made up from +

[cali @copingwitheds]

Seen as someone that as rolls during the deed and normal life stuff that involves showing my skin. I feel like if I let that go, he will see the flaws I have and think otherwise. I even think he might think that I am a normal person with fat. And that he might leave me bc +