coco - semi recov

they/she 19

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Gonna just kinda self sabotage until I get to my residential program but I’m gonna commit to getting mentally better once I get there. I’m just doing things that are kinda bad for me to cope but u think once I’m there it will be easier to change my habits. Hopefully 🤞

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Making bad decisions but maybe I’m feeling less suicidal ???

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Losing weight cuz I actually am finding food physically disgusting. Makes me think manifestation works more when you detach cuz I used to listen to hella subliminals about being disgusted by food

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

What was I even talking abt 🤦‍♀️ I don’t have friend problems as much thankfully 🙏

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

i asked them abt them being distant and now ig i’m in my joker era now 😍

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

if my new friend group ditches me too i’m entering my joker era

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

My ass so big it be lookin like a boat 🤗

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Ew I feel so emo

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

PTSD is fun I always have dreams that ppl are saing me 😍😍😍

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

This guy walked me and my friend back to our apartment and I told him I was gonna sleep and to go home and apparently he actually stayed and invited ppl over and then kept trying to get into my room cuz he was telling my roommates bf I had his vape, I didn’t???why are men weird

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

My ex bf sexually assaulted me and now is telling people I sexually assaulted him our whole relationship I feel so stupid because I keep begging him to understand my side and he keeps ignoring me

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

This manifestation was not worth it !!! Also embarrassed I ever believed this man was the love of my life he is so scary man

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

manifesting i meet the love of my life and then they absolutely shatter my heart so then i starve myself to death

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Omg came back to this and my ex was someone who used this… turns out he was actually the latter

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

ppl who use :3 are either the sweetest people ever or the worst

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Soooo tired but I can’t get off my phone I keep stressing about everything

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

The urge to get worse even though ik im just sabotaging myself

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

This shit makes me want to off myself

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

I feel like I’m going insane trying to stay friends with my ex bfs girl best friend

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

I’m pretty sure my roommate overheard me trying to hang myself and now she told my other roommates and now they are acting all awkward. I get she’s trying to help but like idk u guys super well why would I want to talk to u guys about this

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

I wish my bag didn’t break cuz then I probably would have died tonight

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

I actually almost died today I would be dead if the bag I tried hanging myself with didn’t break

[coco - semi recov @coqonutcals]

Break turned into break up actually gonna compeltely relapse or kill myself either or