self-destructive behavior. Yourself matters, if they can’t treat you well then treat yourself well. I deeply care to you, to everyone here. I know that you need to hear this, so I am rooting for you and your growth. Good luck.
Learning to love ourselves or being at a healthy phase requires learning or trying to settle in a healthy phase. It’s agreeable that everyone has their toxic traits, it might be a toxic coping mechanism that one is aware of or unaware of. It is getting aware of the subconscious+
Take away slowly those form of sabotaging to yourself and then exchange that with a healthy and positive mechanism. I believe that change is not constant but it is clearly inevitable. So please, do not guilt trip yourselves, stop gashlighting, stop manipulating, stop self-harm, +