May review:
-Executed my plan 80% of the time.
- No blown accounts
- Still working on trailing to targets properly (lost a lot of potential profits because of it)
- Patience and discipline best its been but not perfect, hence the 20% not executing my plan.
PNL: -0.5R
After review today, I have not liked my emotions these last 3 trading days trying to save my accounts.
I have set my xfas to 1 micro max and 2 trades a day max to try and focus on building these back up slowly.
Do not want to go into eval jail heading into August.
Today was a battle fighting for my accounts lives. Was very close to blowing them, but came out up 1R on the day. Not exactly the day I wanted to have but i guess green is green.
Got stopped b/e on my first short attempt, then took 2 longs, 1 loss and 1 win.
@DreFutures They do but you cant lock your settings unless you hit DLL. https://t.co/E8Q0lynoA1 is a 3rd party but they have really good risk settings.
Ended the week with a winning trade a little over 1R. Tough week for me.
Down about 4-5R on the week. Still alive which is what matters. Going size down next week and hopefully build the balance back up for august.
This is the worst trading week of my career when following my rules.
The pain of being 1 trade away from a payout after last Friday, losing 2R 3/4 days this week. Had 1 1R green day on Tuesday.
This is much more painful mentally than blowing up in a single day i stg.
Onwards.
Down 4R and have 4R left to play with. For some reason I still feel as if I have already blown the account.
Mentally exhausting being in a DD period. I hope I can recover out of this to show my mind its okay to be in DD and this is why risking appropriately is so important.
Welp stupidly tried another trade. Down about 3R today and 4R on the week.
4R left in drawdown. Hopefully we can pull something together to end the week.
Couple losses trying to short today. Part of the game. Was green everyday last week, that was the easy part. Walking away today down 2R, is the test.
On to tomorrow.
I was green every day this week. These weeks are not really the weeks I should be proud of because I wasnβt really tested mentally.
Need to refresh this weekend, and come in expecting a few red days next week and how i will handle them. Then i can be proud.
What a fucking bounce back week for me. Blew up after my payout last week, and up 8R this week.
Patience and discipline, all it is. Take each day 1 day at a time. Process > money.
Need like one more win to take an actual payout. We go again next week.
2.5R trade today but stop was so big so its only 1R. Process over money right now, but does suck when you get a A++ setup and can only afford to risk 1 micro.
Green is green. Green everyday this week after disaster last week. Going to trade small tomorrow for opex if anything.
Very small green day today, less than 1R.
Place the wrong stop on my first entry which made me over leverage a bit and lost more than i wanted.
2 things i'm proud of today: sizing properly on the 2nd trade due to a big loss on the first, walking away small green, no greed.
1 win 1 loss, up 2R on the day.
That was a incredibly painful PA, glad I am green.
Day 2 of building back from disaster last week.
Hopefully this week can keep giving.