At work today, someone bought me lunch and I gave it away to other coworkers. I said it was because “I’m on a diet.” My coworkers accepted it and went, “aw, why are you going on a diet? 🥺” It just felt reassuring that they didn’t see me as someone who needed to lose weight
@daisybrea_ as a kid I was pretty chubby so my family and schoolmates would always make comments about my body. I’m sure I associated losing weight comments = good, big comments = bad. As someone who only chases praise and acceptance, my ed was fueled. I want control and to be loved.