Hessiah

21 // she/her // SHTWT EDTWT // 𖤐 lesbian 𖤐 sw: 70kg ugw: 39kg ೃ⁀➷ psychotic food hoarder

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

I’ve been considering self harm recovery but I don’t feel like my self harm is bad enough to warrant the help I would need to recover

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

@drunk0rexicboi Thank you angel been thinking abt you xx hope you’re ok too

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

TW SHTWT // so disappointed in myself that I couldn’t go deeper but it was so painful that it was making me feel sick

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

TW SHTWT // a bit more satisfied with it today than I was yesterday. I think when it’s full of blood I just feel like it’s shallower than it really is

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

@bpd2360 Is that why my arm feels like it sets on fire when I put too much pressure on it

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

The bad thoughts have started and now they won't stop

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

The deeper I cut the more invalid I feel

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

There’s no escape

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

TW SHTWT

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

I feel like everyone has worse problems than me and I have no issues and I’ve never had anything bad happen to me and I’m not worthy of any help cause I’m totally fine. Whenever I go to therapy or hospital I feel like I’m taking up someone’s space who needs it way more than I do

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

For some reason my psych saying 'your self harm seems to be so much of a process and so ritualistic so it should be easier for you to stop' has triggered me into wanting to cut every day at every depth without control

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

Thinking about self harm recovery makes the self harm voice in my head angry

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

@bunnwantstodie Be safe ml you’re so tiny

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

@zor0cals This is so sweet thank you <3

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

TW SHTWT // wtf is that creepy dark speck in my cut

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

Fuck people and their fuckin using me for shit no one gives a fuck I'll die alone anyway and I'll die soon so why should I give a shit

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

I fucking hate people I let this fucking guy open up to me and dump all his bullshit about his ex on me cause I was just happy someone was talking to me and he asks how I am and I tell the truth cause I think he cares and he fucking leaves me on read for days

[Hessiah @corpse_bunnyy]

TW SHTWT