* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ

⠀ ⠀ i try to be good. am i no good? @purafilia

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

𝐈 𝐀𝐌 𝐍𝐎 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐍𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐋, 𝐒𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐋𝐘 𝐈 𝐀𝐌

[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

@cowbcyup

[𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡. @peppyvierge]

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@cowbcyup

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[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

@cowbcyup

[˛ 𝒔oul's 𝐜Ʀყ . @depthswail]

why should i apologize for being the 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐢’𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 .ᐣ no one apologized to me for 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒂𝒚 ..

[𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡. @peppyvierge]

@cowbcyup

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

@peppyvierge

[۟ @godsfell]

i wanted her bones, her blood, her tissues, the sinews that bound her together. i would have held her next to me though time had stripped away the tones and textures of her skin.

[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

@cowbcyup

[ethel cain lyric bot @mothercainbot]

You’ve still got time, waiting on the other side
You’ll still be alright, if you just make it to the other side

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

♡ to plot connections with cooper!

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

don't ask. he doesn't know either.

[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

@cowbcyup

[۟ @godsfell]

so tell me, where did the blood on your palms come from? self-divination, or sacrifice?

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

"if he comes back, then i'll talk to him. faith, you can't marry beau. he's not going to love you like i have."

[𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡. @peppyvierge]

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all faith could think of was her fathers warnings about coop, how he was dangerous and a bad influence on her. god, if he only knew how they’d been fooling around . . cheating, sneaking, lying.

“ and when he comes back ? ”

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[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

@cowbcyup

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

@purafilia

[۟ @godsfell]

we make each other alive. does it matter if it hurts?

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

"stay with me. i will never lead you astray, faith. your daddy would want you with someone who knows the lord. i've been taking care of his parish, have i not?"

[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

"then tell himv no. tell him that your heart belongs to someone else. it always has."

he's still grasping at straws here. chest tightening at the mention of her father. oh. she still believes he'll return. how sad. tilting her head up.

[𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡. @peppyvierge]

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eyes squeezed shut at his comforting words, sobbing softly into his shirt—— an odd deja vu from when she told him she was pregnant all those years back.

“ . . i don’t want to disappoint daddy, wherever he is. ” faith

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[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

running his fingers through her hair, keeping her safe against him.

"angel, i will never leave you."

[𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐡. @peppyvierge]

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faith buries her tear stained face into coopers’ chest—— so safe, so loved.

“ i did . . i asked for a sign— and now we’re here. ”

inhaling his cologne, head spinning with all things cooper.

“ i wish it’d all go away. ”

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[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

kissing her forehead as she speaks to him, hands resting on her hips. how did he get so lucky? she was perfect. a gift from god.

"as long as you think it's the right thing."

[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

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blinking, josie looks up at him with pure adoration in her eyes. her soft palm comes up to his cheek as she speaks. “ i want to give you a big family, at least four. ”

it’s difficult—— but nothing compares to the way cooper lights up whenever he holds their babies.
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[* 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞.ᐟ @cowbcyup]

"you're willing to have another, lamb? but, i thought this was our last." he knew how much of a toll pregnancy takes on josie. he also knows that he could lose another lamb if they keep going.

[𝒋𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒆. @purafilia]

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“ maybe when the new baby is here i won’t feel as lonely … it’ll be nice to have my hands full again. well, until we start trying for the next one. ”

trying to cheer herself up, face flushed at the thought. “ then again, i’ve always gotten pregnant quickly. ” hm.
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