the way i grew up makes me feel like i have to be entertaining or useful to be worthy of love, but i'm trying to break that mindset while reparenting myself ^___^
i used to worry about taking good care of my future carer, but i'm starting to realize that's not the part i'll find hard at all. it's trusting someone enough to let them into my headspace all the way ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა
want a carer who benefits from the dynamic just as much as i do, want a carer who finds taking care of me calming and looks forward to tiny nights as much as i do, wanna ask them to join in on coloring and playing when they’re stressed to take their mind off of difficult days,