John Chalice

Trying to find my way in Christ, what little I know, for although I know He's God's Son and is NOT God, I struggle to learn and live the rest of the Gospel.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's trying how when I could use real understanding from the Scriptures, there are NO true Christian churches I know of in my county, but it's full of claimants falsely saying Jesus is God, and with my struggles with sin and the enemy, it's so tough to understand them for myself.
AND sadly, in loving music but lacking it properly Christian, with most no real Christian friends, though I've managed to get a number of followers on here, it's just so tough to find my way on my own, and to live the life I'm supposed to live so I end up with eternal life.
PLUS, I've never seen a true Christian live their life in front of me to show ME how to live AS a Christian -- thereby to disciple me, or even to simply set an example I could follow to learn from. Finding a true Christian has been all but impossible in this life, so many not filling the bill.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's sad how *I* wasn't taught proper dental care, with both parents hurting my mouth on first brush, to hand the brush to me, but sans teaching of how to properly brush or floss, their giving candy for me to take my medicine when young, and so much sugar throughout my childhood.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's so sad, how I was never faced with a true Godly Christian role model to guide me INTO how to live life, but both parents were churchgoers who practiced sin instead of walking the walk, and all the churches I attended falsely claimed Christ was God, not rightly God's own Son.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

I don't doubt God uses the "Higher Powers" for Justice's and His wrath's sake. I struggle with their need to follow Jesus, to resist not evil, turn the other cheek, and love their enemies instead of fight them, unto whether they must do so rightly for eternal life, or be exempt.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

PLUS *I* never saw anyone living out the true Gospel, nor preaching it, but so many claiming Jesus was God or created, or the Holy Spirit wasn't truly a Person who was God rightly referred to with the pronoun "He", so I've struggled TO learn and properly live it out *for* myself.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

My parents sent me to school, took me to dead 'church', played with and worked me, sat me in front of the TV/stereo a TON, but didn't teach me how to live, especially my purposes IN life -- what they were, or how to embrace them, most especially within, and for, the true Gospel.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

I'm really confused: I don't know just how much I was supposed to seek to learn how to live this life for mine own self, especially from childhood where I THOUGHT I was supposed to be TAUGHT how to live, to learn life's ins and outs from the voice of experience, which I was not.
AND in the 'churches' I attended, which ALL ended up being 'trinitarian', thus teaching falsely Christ was God, not rightly God's Son thereby NOT being His own God and Father, though I was given SOME "Christian" teachings, I didn't realize they were based in Christ being God.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's sad, how when I needed schooling, neither of my parents were rightly communicative unto a proper upbringing, therein to teach me themselves, nor to provide a sounding board for when I had issues AT the varied schools they did send me unto that I didn't know how to deal with.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

One issue I'VE had is when I first believed IN Jesus, I did so for no reason other than being told in 'church' He was God's Son; PLUS with the world so full of "Christians" claiming He's God, and by asking Him in, eternity is a 'done deal', not following in faith unto life's end.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's painful, how when I want to live out the Gospel, I have NO one IN my life whom I know who is living it out, and I don't know how to get the motivation, nor the knowledge OF the Gospel, TO rightly live it out, although I do believe Jesus is God's Son, rightly NOT God Himself.
And it's just SO tough to LEARN how to live OUT the Gospel, with SO many "Christian" 'churches' in view falsely claiming Christ is God, not rightly God's Son begotten from His Word sans beginning by whom He made all things and worthy of worship, whom they rightly follow.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

Within my lack of upbringing, plus my troubles with love, thereby unto God, Jesus, myself, AND others, and following Jesus IN true faith, although I've believed He's God's Son thus NOT God, it's so easy to believe God made me for destruction, rather than to forever know His love.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

God gave us His Son. God is NOT His own Son. It's that simple. To go contrary to these, no matter how much one enjoys this life in doing so, will NOT bring eternal life, but rather believing God's Son is *actually* God Himself, esp. preaching it, brings everlasting punishment.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

My parents didn't really teach me to value anything, nor to be thankful, neither to love rightly, namely God, Jesus, others, OR myself, and with my lack OF upbringing I struggled with school, both to always motivate myself with the subjects, and to relate with my fellow students.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

I *SO* struggle looking back over all the years of "Christian" music I've listened to in my life, and so often at the time I was listening not realizing it was by artists who falsely believed Jesus Christ was God Himself, NOT rightly God's Son, and even saying so in their lyrics.

[John Chalice @crysaliq]

It's just been SO difficult to find my way AS a Christian with the world so chock full of false ones, either proclaiming Jesus Christ, God's Son and Word, is God, that He's created, or that the Holy Spirit isn't rightly a Person who is God and referred to with the pronoun "He".