full of grief because i was full of love. while i am trying to move forward, my heart still carries the weight of what it refuses to let go, even after the chapter has ended. part of me is still mourning because i dared to believe in 'forever' in a world designed to be temporary.
It’s called anxious attachment, it’s how you know you have it. Earlier in life, you were abandoned by someone close to you, and it traumatized you.
Now you constantly scan for any sign of that abandonment, and these things you mentioned feels like abandonment. A delayed message from someone you like feels like they don’t like you anymore, a change in tone means they may not like you anymore, even conflict scares you also and you end up abandoning yourself to keep the peace so they don’t leave you
Healing is necessary or you’d drive any partner insane with these traits
when i jokingly tell my friends i have crippling anxiety but then i remember the times when it has left me stuck in bed and suddenly it doesnt feel very funny anymore