I was listening to this video trying to sleep and it had this quote
"if we're so tiny and insignificant, and you're able to find one person in the whole universe who cares about you, why would you wanna disappoint them?".
I don't know. Thats a good point
@synaxx_x though I do only care to try things that wont mess with me permanently Because the same interest I have in exploring the mind also makes me want to keep it as well and in shape as Ican
@synaxx_x yess!! me too! I think it was abt a year ago that I was dumb and wanted to try dph and I experienced hallucinations for the first time and spoke to shadow copies of my friend and his gf and it was craazy scary but after the fact so interesting. I never knew it would feel so real
@synaxx_x i honestly think neuroscience/chemistry might be one of the most interesting topics ever besides art, at least imo. I definitely wanna start journaling sometime this year so I can study myself in the future.
need 2 Lock back in on bass and guitar. I cant give up like I wanted to thats Gay and Dumb ive decided. I just gotta pick it back up . it sonly been like 3 weeks i havent played I think so not too bad
@synaxx_x I don't think it's possible to go a year of your life without changing in some way tbh To be fair I guess im still young and formative and wtv but seeing people around me they're always changing somewhat. + you live with your mind so the subtle changes over time arent noticeable
@synaxx_x it was crazy to realize recently while I was looking thru screenshots that as much as I think ive changed since 2020 that really a lot of things are the same im just around different people
@synaxx_x I really like being able to look at history of shit cus its the only rlly stable thing I feel like most people have. sadly pretty much all my old twts are suspended and 2-3 years ago I deleted half my photos all at once bc I felt they were cringe๐ญ
soundgarden is Heavenly. They are not a real band. the song Jesus Christ Pose is fake because that is not the only song that god provided them because in fact its all their songs because they're that good