With unnatural force the room fades into darkness.
Scattered by horror,
clinging to hope,
she ripped out the petals out of the rose.
Vanishing dreams,
captured in frames,
directed towards the last scene.
One of the symptoms of schizophrenia is difficulty incorporating new information about the world. This can lead people with schizophrenia to struggle with making decisions and, eventually, to lose touch with reality.
I thought I never had the knowledge to write, the intellect to write, the courage to write. But in fact I just couldn't find something in my eyes worth writing about.
With hell in front of me.
Within me.
Life was nothing more than a passing season.
You cannot build warmth with someone
who does not have access to it themselves.
No patience.
No love.
No loyalty.
Nothing you give will create something that isn’t there.
For years, I moved, spoke, chose—
but the light was low.
Now something inside me is flickering on, and suddenly I see shadows I didn’t notice before.
That doesn’t mean I wasn’t there.
It means I am starting to see myself more clearly.
And clarity can feel brutal.
An Tagen an dem die Sonne scheint, und man gar nicht so wirklich weiß woher der Regen eigentlich kommt. Ich sehe Kinder durch Pfützen springen, dass pure Leben.