nope. || kaia ⛧

kaia || she/her || 29 || under 18 dni || bipolar I || disordered || manic and panicked 🪴

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

if we’re mutuals and you’re reading this, i would go to war for you. even if we don’t typically interact, you’re part of my internet family now i’m emotionally invested in your wellbeing no take backs

[Justice @Justiceforjaws]

“cum for me baby” stop fucking pressuring me

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

it was such a small gesture that literally cost me nothing but it meant everything to her in that moment. and ever since i’ve always tried to remember that we really don’t know what’s happening in other people’s lives and kindness can go such a long way to those who need it most

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

this was during covid but she asked if she could give me a hug and i said yes and then i went in the back and cried because i was so touched by her reaction. i hope she’s doing better now, she’ll never have any idea that she taught me such a big lesson that day (7/8)

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

i can’t do this chronic insomnia shit anymore bro like it’s either take the strongest sleeping pills known to medicine and be a catatonic zombie the next day or not sleep longer than 45 minutes and be a slightly more functioning zombie the next day

[trash jones @jzux]

no YOUR mistakes don’t define you. mine define me though. sorry for the confusion

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

i immediately swipe left on anyone who has photos of themselves rock climbing in their profile out of fear that they’ll invite me to join them

[a prednisone hate account @vvictorman_uel]

jeez you try to kill yourself a couple times here and there and suddenly suicide jokes are off the table for life smh

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

y’all i don’t usually feel emotional over celebrity deaths but i fell to my knees when i heard about Dolly. i am grieving that beautiful soul like she raised me herself

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

had a dream that one of my friends fell on me like full suggestive collision style and i’ve never seen this friend in any romantic light but i woke up with HELLA butterflies this morning

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

it’s just a constant cycle of waking up, maintaining hygiene, going to work, cleaning the house, doing laundry, paying bills, keeping myself alive and oh my GOD I JUST WANT A NAP

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

remembering that one time my longtime “best friend” got engaged, constantly talked about me being in the wedding, and then one day i saw her wedding photos on instagram. didn’t even tell me i wasn’t invited to the wedding period let alone why. wasn’t even angry, just devastated

[vivi @mooncatvivi]

been feeling very existential bc i think i have masked too hard and for so long that atp the majority of my life has been spent living in the image of someone who does not actually exist. who am i and have i ever really existed beyond a concept

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

i miss the person i was before heartbreak tore her apart time and time again until she was destroyed forever. i miss feeling in love and the thrill of having a crush. i miss feeling like i could place my trust in others. all i feel now is empty and dead.

[nope. || kaia ⛧ @cvltbxtch]

@feralspoilgirl get a venmo debit card for next time! omfg i’ve been there so many times and it’s saved me. it’s been a while so i don’t remember but i *think* you get a virtual one while you wait for your physical card. it doesn’t cost anything and you can spend your venmo balance directly!

[𝖐𝖚𝖘𝖍𝖇𝟔𝖗𝖇𝖎𝖊❦™️ @kushb6rbie]

i don't understand why people wait for the new years to cut people off like fuck you right now on july 12th