arya♡

edtwt | shtwt | 20

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

COUNTLESS honeymoon stages
countless restarts after i gain weight again
countless apps and trackers and calendars and bullshit and all for nothing

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

i have journals dating back to 2018 where i logged my calories and workouts and weight

and not a single day since then has passed where i haven’t been able to think about what i eat
or what i look like
or what the scale will read when i step on it

i turn 21 this year

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

i’m so fucking done and i can’t do this anymore

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

been fasting for 44 hours and i feel surprisingly good- this is the longest i’ve ever gone like this
but ummm how do i tell my gf this without sounding like a pick me freak.

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

@timelytulip my mother would beat my ass for asking for just a coke zero LMAO
you’re lucky fr

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

soooo why is my sister 3 inches taller than me and 10 pounds lighter? my last straw

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

coming back from school thinking i was 120 and then finally weighing myself over break to see that im at 114.8????? holy
not eating does in fact work !

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

deadass every time my gf says that, it ruins my whole day

[skel ⛤ @rottenskelly]

why do people think its okay to tell a disordered person they “look healthy” as if i wont km$ right now

[ela @elasdiarys]

just imagine looking this pretty tiny while sitting and reading oh im going to be sick

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

this will NEVER be me i stg

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

@rencors your HAIRRR OMG 😭😭😭

[blaise 🌞 @8ballskinny]

start thinking you’re already skinny and you eat like a thin tiny model from the 2000s instead of constantly thinking you’re huge and need to lose weight. manifest the skinny thoughts and your diet, behaviors, and body will follow

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

needed this

[泣かない : thinspo @thinspocolette]

Stop complaining about being fat if you do absolutely nothing to change it.

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

since when did being told u look healthy feel like being told to kill yourself because you are a disgusting freak

[Kyle ✩♬ ₊˚. @microdxse]

and what if i killed myself?

[arya♡ @cxllar_]

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