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veggie ˚｡⋆. dni fatphobes .⋆｡˚ twenty

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

welcome :3

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i want to be sick again. i want people to worry about me because that’s the way i feel cared about

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i really feel like no one cares about me as much as i care about them

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

oh my god i’m so depressed right now. i relapsed on sh for the first time in years years. my appetite has been really low lately. i think its because i have been talking to a boy and that makes me want to eat less. (i broke up with my ex a couple months ago the ago)

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i wasn’t even that small but it was my lowest weight okay

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

old body checks i need this back asap😩

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

10.13.2025

- chia pudding & blueberries 265
- chai latte 220
- protein drink 190
- trail mix 300
- amy’s frozen meal 370
- more trail mix 300
- dates 110
- dried mango 150

total 1,905 ☹️
steps 12k

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

okay i am 4 lbs less this morning just from sleeping lmao i was a little dramatic

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

@shortcakeO_O yes my boyfriend is crazy for me

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

yeah i think it’s time for a relapse 🥰

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i’m actually disgusted. i’m in the overweight bmi category I HATE RECOVERY WHAT HAVE I DONE

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

my boyfriend likes me how i am but i have gained … 50 lbs from my lw which was when i first got with him 2 years ago. i gained from recovery but for awhile i was maintaining a lower weight then i just gradually kept gaining more and more

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

hey so i am really big and i cant do this anymore!😃 i gotta lose weight fuck recovery

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i decided i just need to start working out and that’s how ill get a nicer body. i dont mind looking healthy atp but i do mind having a high bf %. i want more muscles to feel and look strong

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i think i might go back to recovery again. after all i am in intensive ed treatment. might as well recover and not fight it. my life was so good while i was recovering other than body image.

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i feel like such a loser for not working out (other than my daily 10k steps) i have hardly any muscle

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

@ohitsariot goals omgggg

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

@decembersdollxx nah just one bag won’t hurt you

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

i wish i was ana idc what yall say. at least they lose weight

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

okay so i realized purging is messing with my meds absorbing. one of them that helps with depression slowly releases over 12-24 hours. that means if i purge at all it will have an effect on how the meds absorb/wont absorb fully.

[roxy ✯ @cyderoxy]

this explains why i have been so depressed lately since i relapsed