I don't want to take care of myself anymore. I feel completely incapable of it. I've tried to have routine I've tried to be pretty I've tried to get some form of confidence but I just can't. I'm completely unloved and it'll all be for nothing. I just want to rot.
Really wish I could restrict but I'm forcing myself to eat so I don't get another terrible binge week like that. Even started chugging beer and I've always been the type to hate beer. My body still feels bloated and shitty