Alexis Māhū

the evolution of my journey

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Yea, I’m certain he is going to miss the old version of me. Yet, he no longer deserves access to my vulnerability. I’ve gone above and beyond. Only to be met with judgement and defiance. Adios 💋

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I can no longer have faith that anyone is going to treat me better than myself. I know me. So I can show others how to love me. But that starts with me loving me. Unapologetically. First. So be it 💕

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I thought I was really going somewhere with him. Now I think he doesn’t know the difference between fetishized and reality. So I’m taking back my freedom

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Needing to have enough weight for my presence to be enough. Yet, not to heavy that I can’t move as I need to.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

It seems social media gets a kink out of trolling deviant behavior, reminds me of the lynching and hanging of slaves. Am I the only one?

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

It’s harder to be transparent to people you know over people you don’t know. Yet when you do choose to be transparent to loved ones. They don’t realize expressing their opposing feelings is invalidating to mine. Is this considered growth?

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Getting comfortable with what brings me peace and watching the change it creates by bringing awareness to what is life. That’s divine beauty. So I know why they stare. I’m learning how to witness my own greatness while standing in it 🫣

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

The clothes I wear now use to hide my figure while giving me the grace to be classy. Well, the way my shape is changing they are beginning to forecast what’s really going on. I love it. I am learning how to share it in a way that affirms me.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Universe heard me when I said I wanted to be a public speaker. I got my first gig in November. I can’t wait and where my body will be at that time because we will be 6 months in. The changes will be completely visible.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

It only works when I find them attractive. Even then, it’s up to me ALWAYS. It’s a beautiful change to master that’s for sure.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

As much as I feel like the changes are coming slow. The attention I get is growing and men are becoming more aggressive with making me aware they approve. And what THEY want to do 🤣

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I have to get use to all of the attention I am aware of. I choose to be unaware because it honestly feels overwhelming at times. I’ve conditioned myself to be blind and non responsive

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

The dark feminine has arrived.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I’m alone so much. I am learning to accept that it’s better than what I have been lead to believe. The introspection brings me closer to what truly defines me.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I choose Me first

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

My current journey has me really happy with where I am and who I am. 🙏🏽💕

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I am ready for love. lol. That song is on my mind. It takes me to a place when I thought love was simple because I didn’t love myself.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Besides being in paradise there isn’t much popping. I’m hungry af. I have no idea what I’m gonna eat. I know I’m gonna head to the beach because I need an out.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

I’m so restless and sleepy. I feel like I need something to do because it is boring here. I can see why RJ miss the city life.

[Alexis Māhū @d14u2luv]

Ugh, I’m on edge waiting for the unexpected lol