Devon ( shtwt / edtwt )

already dead and gone • this is my safe space, block instead of reporting • DNI IF YOU'RE NOT FROM SHTWT OR EDTWT ⚠️

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I don't need bathbombs, I have a self harm addiction :)

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

One more scar on my body, it shouldn't matter, i have hundreds, yet its so unfair still, you've claimed so much of my body already. I walk around with so many scars caused by you

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

You know I tried my best to turn your black eyes hazel
And kiss away your cruelty
I gladly got undressed, put all my cards on the table
And by cards, I mean me
Apple in mouth, then you left town
Ran after you until my legs gave out

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

Why does it have to be you? Why do you poison my nightmares?

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I came crawlin' in on all fours
Knockin' at your door
I don't wanna bleed anymore
I just wanted love
But you wanted gore
You're my matador

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

Urges have been plaguing my mind again, more and more often, it's almost like my mind can't accept being in a state where it isn't self destructive...in a morbid way I miss being covered in bl00d and watching it pulse out of my body

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

So close to deleting this stupid app because of the age verification thing, the worst is that I'm 20. I'm not even under 18 trying to sneak my way in

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

Why is it that you insist on reminding me how fucked up it's always been

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I'm dead tired but I can't ever fall asleep before 5am wtf :,)

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I think my insomnia might be coming back worse

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I'm sorry

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I might be asking for too much

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

My lover does not deserve a fucked up partner

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

I find so much comfort in being in the darkest possible state of existence

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

What's unsettling is that I want to be fucked up again, it's like I crave it. The complete loss of care for everything to the point where I drown myself into my own end one last time.

[ً. @abhorarchive]

my biggest fear is that you'll begin to see me the way i see myself.

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

Why do I crave it so bad after I've been clean for so long

[Devon ( shtwt / edtwt ) @D3ADevon]

Sometimes, I really wish I would've died all of those years ago

[ᅟᅟgibson girl, @sainticide]

when i die, i want my corpse to be unrecognizable. a something—or—other dead on the side of the road, half—eaten, half—crushed, all—forgotten.

[ᅟᅟgibson girl, @sainticide]

what a horrible thing it is to look into your mother's eyes and see her love for you vanish.

[ᅟᅟgibson girl, @sainticide]

I DON'T WANT YOU TO FUCKING APOLOGIZE. I WANT THE GUILT TO EAT YOU ALIVE. I WANT YOU TO DROWN IN YOUR THOUGHTS LIKE I DROWNED IN MINE.