daisy🫧

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even if I quit, there's not a chance in hell I'd stop

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

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⋆Daisy⋆she/her⋆28⋆aka way too old for this shit⋆#shtwt⋆

I mainly post dumb shit, censored sh, talk about wanting to kms and whatever else.

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Lmaooo so helpful

[Meg @megannn_lynne]

I quit CBT because I would say “Everyone in my life hates me & wants me dead” & the therapist would go “You’re catastrophizing. You just FEEL that everyone in your life hates you & wants you dead.” Then I would say “OK. Now what.”

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Just learnt my car isn't allowed back on the road according to insurance and turns out I drove here illegally and man I need to kms lololol

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

If I get to a point I'm happy with on my project by 10 tonight I might cut, if I don't get to that point I won't cute tonight but will have to make it worse when it happens lmao

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Self harm urges creeping up again. I have so much to do I don't have the time but I have so much I need to hurt myself for

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Like I have no context to what this means or why I wrote it down lmao

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Ah, thanks past daisy.

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

@pseudoindoxyl Offft drunk drivers are such a fear of mine 😭 car is looking okay!! Just my drivers side door is all scratched and dented but not as bad as yours!!! Just waiting to see what the insurance decide now 🤞🤞

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Had my first car crash the other day it was very scary but no one was hurt and my car still drives so I came out pretty lucky

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Just like so I'm clear I may post about food and weight etc but I don't have an ED really I just have disordered eating

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Got back to my girlfriends after multiple days of 10k+ steps and minimal food and apparently I'm bmi 18 now. Weird.

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Im usually so sedentary I don't break 2k steps but I love days out like today I hit 18k

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

I don't have scales here so I can't check but I'm itching to now. Might be able to hop on some tomorrow.

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

I wore this crop top out today and it was hanging off me to the point my bra was out and idk how I feel abt it I didn't think I've lost that much ?

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

@cptsdantics I would deffo consider this under the non-binary umbrella 💖

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

I was about to say that I'm not even underweight according to BMI but then realised my health app has the wrong height in and with the right height I'm right in the cusp at 18.5

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

There was a top I wanted and its in kid sizes but only goes up to 9-10, got it anyway and it fits?? Idk if this says more about their sizing or about my size...

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

@cptsdxoxo Omg that looks so goooood

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

I have a love/hate relationship with bruising so easily

[daisy🫧 @daisysdecay]

Bruise update. Both self inflicted, but only one was I guess technically self harm. The one on my left is from being excited and clapping against my leg/slapping/stimming at a gig yesterday then the one on the right was a closed fist punch with the intention of wanting the pain.