To try and explain how I see the world:
I like video games, movies, tv shows, books, poetry, personal human experience, art, architecture, songs and dance, beauty and carnage.
To try and make it simple
At the heart of it
I love stories
And the heart of
stories
is meaning.
Mat
My font door of unit & my neighbor's open at right angle to each other inside a strangers kitchen, our outside hallway runs into the distance though my unit. I has a black oval ring almost, like where one picture gets so dark you can not see, then continues into light again as another place. The thing following me trying to distract me now focusing on my neighbors with their open door. Like a program made to distract suddenly broken because it has more than one possible target and it flips back and forth not able to achieve its goal.
I see a version of my aunt from more that 20 years ago in the kitchen while standing in my doorframe & exclaimed her name. My neighbors in their doorway said "Fisher". I was confused. Then as I took it all in a man came up the outside hallway that was inside my unit though the soft shadow portal, like two images overlapping each other.
My neighbors & the man in the hallway told me as one I am "running to many dreams at the same time."
This made sense as I awoke, understand that I experience my dream as a watcher and a participant knowing it's a dream and sometimes pulling myself out automatically.
Starting in my unit, forced into a dream in there that was the most stable and unconsciously controlled at a cafe. To pull myself out only to be forced into another. "That cafe was a dream but you were suddenly outside asleep on your couch of a different color with a puppy licking your face awake." If the program could talk. But I rememberd I started in my unit and so traveled back there. I suppose that is why things blended and got confused, not me but the things inside the dream.
Only after apon review and realization did I understand why an entity with my aunt's face from 20 years ago was called"fisher". It is emotionally fishing, trying to hook me in way I will be drawn in, forget everything, act accordingly to our current feelings and let them play out.
All this leads me to believe that our internal evolutionary biological subconscious programming is not so different to a computer.
I have found in solo default that its best & most frustrating quality is that it is essentially a vindictive world algorithm.
Anytime weakness is identified, 2 star spawned, travel in a straight line & not dispatch the enemy, run.
It will compound, weather, enemy rank, class variants, along with the stable but difficult terrain, stuck on a log, wade through water with leaches that poison, in addition to being unable to spam healing items, all to show the value of working together or the achievement of working alone.
In my opinion it turns a 100 hour game into 1000 but what build is your own alone, a beautiful satisfaction.
I spent the morning fighting one of these things with a squat short halfted hexagonal flanged mace.
It makes me wonder how many such things run free in the dreamscape.
For some reason I thought you might enjoy this idea @wilplatypus
The two posts seem like natural anxiety, fears, questions of existence.
At a fundamental level the answer to these questions is to pro create with your wife, she serves you, you severe her, you both serve God through your hands together in the physical. Find enjoyment within them together. We are spiritual beings in experiencing a physical existence, and so should not deny our selves or family those experiences in the name of austerity. If you cause another to suffer you will know it in your heart & it will pain you, within those bounds is the only limitation.
Ultimately make more"God Holes". The place where the soul sits inside the flesh. The shadow you can see if you pursue at your own peril, possible brain aneurysm, something akin to kundalini shakti. You will then be able to see the white smoke veins on your shadow overlayed on your body in the dark & the white smoke spiral traveling through space to you brain. Tho the second heartbeat, constant vibrations, energy out your hands & feet & the left hand sucking like a spiral are constant discomforts you might need to bear.
All that to say in the end it doesn't matter, what truly matters is create places for a soul to reside. A possibility of future experiences to reassimilate into God if that is the path taken. I would say God works with probabilities, the greater the possibility of an outcome for good, the greater the possibility for the betterment of all. Tho in my experience it talks as 5 to 10 still images per second up to hundreds struggle to willfully slow down and even make sense of.
Create life, enjoy life together, try not to cause another to suffer & if you do, let yourself feel remorse & try to understand why.
A starting point, the first node of you will, if you do desire, is to understand the building blocks, from the atom to the cosmic, from the quark, or Holy Spirit, to gravitational pull, is all the same thing in sense.
As I often do I am lead back to my defunct moto:
"For I am everything and nothing all at once."
@LugarCinema Perhaps the greatest movie ever made. A reflection of a possible future at the time. So very close in so many ways. Of monsters & men & blurring the lines between them, blurring between the hero protagonist & the villain.
To cause suffering to others & revel in it.
So very human.
Because I desire a desire I will try to exploit my position to obtain what I desire. In response another will try to exploit my desire for a desire to strengthen their position.
It is a game of humans, pizza shop or otherwise.
@fabian21e8 I am not sure but it reminds me of that Farscape episode of tending the fields each day & going to dance party each night, repeated indefinitely, hypnotized, either a blessing of a curse depending on your view.
@VadeadIesum It was obvious since the images of confessions in the street.
If system of infiltration & consumption, with the desire of control, fears being cut off, if people are faced with the possibility of looking at themselves & understanding right from wrong, chaos will come. @Pontifex