꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱

꒰ঌ tw:ed ana 𖹭 20 | 163 𖹭 cw:still not de4thspo ꨄ︎໒꒱
#edtwt | #рпп

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

@trainwreckxic maybe? 👉👈

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i was just starting to feel better about myself and not dwell so much on my disorder, and then suddenly this happens.
and now i feel even more disgusting and big than ever.
have i really gained weight and look that much fatter?

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i want to cry.
i hate myself and all of this.
today i met a woman i haven't seen in a while, and the first thing she said to me was, "you look good, have you gained weight or something?"
i almost had a fit right then and there.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

this is an incredible place ..

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

visit a funerary culture museum and getting ready to lie in a coffin <3

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

cooking for others was, is and remains one of my favorite hobbies,,

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

surprise!! the "chef mizu cooks" column is back
snickers mochi with a chocolate cream cheese filling, caramel, and peanuts
working with the glutinous rice flour dough was quite challenging, but the result was worth it!!
happy first day of spring and happy cat day, ehe!!
(=^-ω-^=)

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

THIS IS THE BEST GIFT FOR IVAN'S DAY--

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

MY MOM GAVE ME THE SHOES I HAD BEEN DREAMING ABOUT FOR A LONG TIME-- 😭😭
I FREAKY LOVE IT--

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i'm just mentally broken and destroyed.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

it's so upsetting to look at old photos of yourself and realize that you were once the weight you dreamed of, and now you weigh more. i was at my "ideal" weight, it would have been enough for me to just maintain it. but i gained.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

but the worst part is that it happened without any reason.
i haven't changed my diet, i'm still constantly restricting myself, but my weight still increased.
i don't understand.
what is my fault? what did i do wrong? where did i go wrong?

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

it feels like it will never end. it gets worse every time.
i want to get rid of this disgusting body.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i can't stand this anymore.
i hate my body, hate this constant feeling of discomfort.
feeling of heaviness and bloating in my stomach no matter how much i eat.
it seems like it's hard to even breathe.
i feel huge, like i'm in a cramped cage inside my own body.
i'm tired.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

@trainwreckxic it's nice to hear that,, 🥹🥹
i also remember about you and everyone else, i read all your tweets, even if i rarely write anything myself now!! ♡

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

bc | fit check
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new dress and the last days of my normal free life, haha..
(in a few days i'm being admitted to a psychiatric hospital)
i ​​feel like i've gained a lot of weight lately... tell me honestly, how do i look?

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i feel like the fattest creature in the world.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

i'm literally on the verge of a breakdown. i feel like i'm about to break my scale (or my face). i don't understand. why is my weight only increasing, why is the number growing?
what the hell am i doing wrong? i'm maintaining a deficit, active every day, but it's all pointless.

[꒰ঌ 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖔𝖓 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖌 ꨄ︎໒꒱ @dandelionfroggy]

tw: bc | fit check
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birthday bc, haha..
lately i feel fat more and more often. i'm sure i've gained weight and that's why i feel disgusted with myself.
tell me honestly, what weight or BMI do i look like, i really need to know..