I used to ask God why this heart ? But now as I grow I ask another question?why this mind and this heart ?.Why this ache from both? Why are they not like this Era?can't I be Normal & no I will never be.Since childhood I knew,but at least I wanted to fit.But that's not my world.
Between compositions & poems & Quotes; Too much words are lost in between so whatever you write,will you reach each audience? .so How could you reach all audience with one channel ! ,Media proved that it's impossible soo,
منحتُ الكلمات فرصة، لكنها خذلتني؛ فهي لا تلامس إلا السطح، بينما تغرق المعاني الحقيقية في الأعماق، وهناك بقيت أفكاري ومشاعري غير مفهومة. جعلني هذا أتساءل: ثم ماذا بعد؟ إلى متى؟ لماذا ذاك؟
Am already awake,so don't wake me up. Cause when i saw this world, I wanted to sleep,How fragile it was,It consumed all my resources to live,yet here I am.
Having hope as my child self said:It will get better just hang on this will get better, I killed hope once but it didn't die
Built a wall, Demolish a wall. No point of it either. Extra mile sounds fake too, Tried.tierd,Have always found no point of proud.thought of giving up, then it pull up. Yet i gave up, for the walls seems to woke up again. Yet I hated those walls again & again.
Between compositions & poems & Quotes; Too much words are lost in between so whatever you write,will you reach each audience? .so How could you reach all audience with one channel ! ,Media proved that it's impossible soo,
Mind racing, Is a real thing. When idea glimpses it's just seems no sleep tonight..., like a wild horse on the loose, there's no stop, no going back till it's polymerized.
It feels like chains had chained me after expressing much ,every word perished like it was nth, my mouth may be shut but my mind...God's know what's going through.
وبعدين قلبي مقبوض ليه؟,هل اتخلي عن كل دا !!هل انا عايز دا!؟ لأ، لكن العالم ...قاسي و انا مش عايز اغيرني انا عايز انا زي ما انا كفاية، كفايه كدا يا اعيش نفسي يا اموت نفسي لا جدل في ذلك،لكن حتي متي سوف أتساءل من انتم و هل انتم بشر؟
هل تشعرون مثلما اشعر؟ ام اني لست من هنا و لا اشعر
Day by day: I can't explain, day by Day i don't feel the same, Day by day: my heart fades away, day by Day i crumble in a way, Day by day: I still stand tall in a way, day by Day: how long will it stay that way, Day by day: I love life but ppl keep changing my way, Day by Day....
Sometimes i get a feelings thats is way to vast to be explained, it just overwhelm's me into not knowing how to express it neither verbally nor written.that Feeling is present but the words to describe it are not found. And i hate that feeling...like am paralyzed!!
عدي علي فترات ببقي فيها lifeless كدا زي فاقد شغف في حياه و دا من اكتر الفترات الي كرهتها لكن اكتشفت ان دا جسمي زي ديفنس ميكنزم الي هو من كتر منا مكمل و عادي بس في لا واعي دا مش عادي دا كلو بيأسر لكن مش في لحظتها و ان دا بيتجمع مره
وحده و هباه
I don't wanna get back to the numb stage again,it's crawling back slowly & am fighting. For it gives you no connection with your own emotions,yeah i still feel what others go throu.but fck for me its like being locked in cage, i want to feel but there is no room for that in here.