i think the reason it hurts so bad is because of how much I loved this. I have never loved anything in my life as much as I have loved this.
And now that it's ending, I guess I finally realised exactly how big of a part it has been of who I am today. Having to leave something I poured my heart and soul into, let me tell you, that shit ain't easy.
And I think, maybe for the first time ever, I truly understand what it feels like to have your heart break into a million pieces. I never regretted you or what we had, you'll always be a maybe someday in my head.
For now, I let you go, I release you to go live and love your life the way you deserve too. I hope you know how truly sorry I am for everything, and I hope that you see this and know how much I really did care about you.
i don't message her anymore. i just quietly check on her through the edits she posts and the little pieces of herself she leaves online. it hurts that we're no longer part of each other's lives, but seeing her become happier is enough for me.
Thank you for making me feel loved. I still love you and i'm letting you go with a heart full of gratitude and a prayer that you are always taken care of.
We were a beautiful chapter that had to end too soon. Loving you meant learning to let you go. Not because my heart changed, but because our paths could never meet.