friendships only last when people choose to see you as a person that makes mistakes and help you learn from them not if they decide you are inherently evil just because of some human errors or shortcomings
There are photos in my phone that erode my trust and loosen my tether, I call them the mood destructors and they serve no purpose other than to shoot shrapnel directly into my brain upon contact
Nobody tells you exclusion wounds make you unintentionally callous toward others’ positive feelings about you since you’ve never learned to believe on an intuitive level that a person might actually be hurt by your absence or lack of affection. Example: ghosting like it’s nothing
has anyone figured out how to make yourself do things you dont want to do without sitting around idly for hours thinking about how you have to do things you dont want to do. anyone at all?
I lack the requisite wisdom to communicate to my friends and acquaintances that my self-isolation compulsion has been growing progressively worse, but that I want them to stick around anyway, but I also know it’s unfair to expect that of them if I’m hurting their feelings
Decided to take a few minutes to save myself a few hours. No more sitting in the car holding up orders so that I can write out the same text 30 times a day.
I have come to the conclusion that all societal stability is predicated on the existence of a “default job” for people who aren’t really passionate about their job out of high school and if there is no default job the entire country enters mass psychosis and kills itself
@Lovandfear During the day I feel there’s always something I SHOULD be doing. When night comes, I’m more at peace and I feel less guilty relaxing and doing what I WANT to do.
CBT doesn't make you more mentally healthy if you've suffered actual, life threatening trauma. What it does very very well, however, is make you able to gaslight yourself into tolerating intolerable abuse.