At the mat. May be the last time I'm here...reading book about Buddhism. Trying to be mindful. Feel ill have to read multiple times and/or get a teacher to fully absorb, and actually live mindfully...
Alright. 1st ep.S2 already better. Some humor. Some action, which I don't necessarily need, and was present in S1, but still nice to see. Not staying too long on one scene. My attention span isn't what it used to be. And Ben Mendelsohn!
Of course this comes from a being who's never been involved with, let alone create anything that anyone has seen, heard, or been interested in. Nevertheless!
Reading the Josh Brolin memoir. It's too good. I hate it. Fuck that asshole. It's TOO GOOD. It's TOO MUCH to take in. It has no business being SO GOOD.
Watching Tyson Vs. Paul. Currently Barrios Vs. Ramos. Not normally my thing. But, ah, they had the Dallas Cowboys cheerleaders, and sign girls. And guys punching each other in the face. Which, again, I'm not normally a fan of misogyny, and violence...
Was trying to not be on my phone so much. Brought The Hobbit to read. About 100 pages left. Got tired of that. Used phone a lot. Just went back to it, and some lady is watching the news on her phone with the volume on MAX. She's sitting at a desk and eating grapes.
At the dealer, as usual. Maybe gonna tweet a lot, maybe not. Thinking about therapy. Thinking about the end of the world as we know it. Thinking I may have skin cancer. Thinking about my boys. Thinking about the fucking $2k I'm gonna spend on my car
Lonely and alone. Not gonna do anything drastic. I'm on a loop. Thinking of women. Thinking of others suffering far more than I. Thinking I never quite fit. Don't belong. Thinking this isn't real.