Falling this hard, loving this deeply — it's dangerous. But I’m high on the thrill of it, knowing that this could all crush me like the weight of a collapsing building. Every second of agony I might be subjected to in the event that it does is worth it to have you for this time.
the second he intertwines our fingers, i find myself melting further into the sheets and he comes down with me — because he always does, he goes wherever i do.
i’ve gone to bed with you on my mind. and not plotting ways to murder you, just… just you, i suppose. i've gone to bed thinking about you and wondering what the fuck is going on in my own head with regards to you.
i've made several mistakes in the past but loving you will never be considered one to me, regardless of how this ends. i want you, all of you, in exchange for all of me. in the past, i've never been able to make you mine. i want to break that cruel cycle, if you'll allow me to.
we have always been in love — all these feelings were merely buried and began to surface from the moment you laid your eyes on me that day in august. faded memories started to become clear; and each showed me your face, each spelled out your name.
i've been needing someone like you in my life for such a long time. someone to help me help myself. i just never thought it'd be someone i'm falling in love with.
“i'm just admiring my gorgeous girl. is there a problem?”
“that's the second time you've called me that today...”
“and it won't be the last. you're so fucking gorgeous.”
last time you asked me this i told you i wasn't... that i was still terrified and anxious about everything but i couldn't help liking you so i pushed that aside. this time.. i'm still anxious and scared but i know i'll be okay because you're with me.
you recognised me from the moment you first laid your eyes on me; you didn't know my name, nor my heart, but you knew my soul.
and the worst part of this all is that i recognised yours too. instantly.
surrender was not an option, no matter how tempting it appeared. it was not an option, no matter how many nights i spent looking out the window and wondering if it was high enough to be a fatal fall.