나를 소모하고 갉아먹어야 돌아가는 엔터계도 진절머리나고 내가 또 머리채가 잡혀서 이랬나싶고 나도 피땀눈물 흘려가며 번 돈인데 천만원은 우숩게 쓰는 내가 미쳤나싶고. 그러고도 대우하나 못받는게 당연하다는게 어이없다.
난 그냥 탈출하련다...
공연만 보는 라이트한 팬 되는걸로.
이게 우리의 마지막일까. 사랑의 끝이 아닌, 만남의 끝이 있다고는 생각했는데 오늘 처음 그런 생각이 들었어. 이게 다 무슨 소용일까. 지친다. 내가 이렇게까지 해야되나.
한 사람으로인해 기분이 하늘 끝까지 갔다가 또 바닥을 뚫고 내려가는 기분은 너무 끔찍해.
확실한 행복이 있는데 그렇게까지 얼마남아있을지 모를 돈, 시간, 체력, 열정을 써가면서까지 나를 갉아먹는 사랑을 하고싶진않아. 내가 원하는건 이게 아니야.
우리가 너무 늦게 만났나보다.
그럼에도불구하고 내가 확실히 말할수있는건 내가 널 많이 사랑한다는거야.
그러니까 이런 고민들이 있는거겠지. 널 떠난다는게 아냐.
우리가 잘 못본다는것뿐이지 달라지는건 없어.
그냥....내가 욕심을 버리겠다는거야. 어차피 의미도 없는데 하는 활동들을 말이야.
우리의 마지막이 다가오고 있는구나.
안녕.
🎵: Do you have any plans for a pictorial shoot or photobook release this year?
🦊: Pictorial... What is the standard for a pictorial?
🎵: Like going overseas to shoot, or planning and releasing a photobook.
🦊: Actually, this Season's Greetings was released to match the Christmas season. It was my first time doing that.
🦊: Then... if the timing is right... couldn't a Christmas season pictorial come out like that too?
💜: Sanha also went to Okinawa and released a photobook. MJ could go somewhere like that too...
💜: Since MJ's daily life itself is like a pictorial...
🦊: Shall we shoot a pictorial right now?
🎵: Good!
🦊: (Holding the stethoscope) I'll put down the syringe.
🎵: Since you're a doctor. You're so cool.
🎵: Please look here 💕
💜: I wanted to take a cool picture, but he's cute.
🦊: Am I cute right now? Ah, my face is cute? Then to be cool, do I need to go get my face fixed?
🎵: No!
🦊: What pose should I do?
🎵: Bear pose!
🦊: A cool pose? On the chair? With this friend? Ah, this friend is me? (🤣🤣🤣) Without realizing it lol With him, no with me! But looking from below feels a bit much...
🎵: Then if you release another pictorial at Christmas, will you do it with this concept?
🦊: Wouldn't I?
🎵: Or is there a concept Myungjun wants to try?
🦊: It's not that it comes out like this because of a specific concept, but I think it will change depending on the song that comes out.
💜: Please do a cool pose.
🦊: Didn't you just see it?
🎵: Not cute, not lovely!
🦊: (Posing) You want something bulky and muscular right?
🎵: Not that... like a real pictorial shoot!
🦊: Ah, I understood. I understood. Should I do it seriously?
💜: But it looks like the corners of your mouth are twitching.
🦊: It is a bit awkward. Since I'm not the one in charge of being "cool" in the team.
🎵: You are cool!
🦊: Okay, I'll really do a cool pose this time.
🦊: Please decide the pose.
🎵: Like this lol
💜: I don't think this is it, no no lol
🦊: How is this different from this? lol
🦊: Ah, you wanted to see my armpits? 🤣🤣🤣 Look all you want.
🦊: How is it? Is it a bit cool?
🎵: I meant something sexy.... lol
🦊: Was that not sexy just now? lol It wasn't sexy lol Then something else! Not this. A pose that has no choice but to look sexy!
🎵: Please sweep down your neck!
🦊: Sweep it down? But I don't have hair?
💜: It looks a bit like a neck disc problem.
🦊: Sorry hehe. Actually, I've never taken a photo with this kind of pose before.
🦊: Next, next!
💜: Something cute.
🎵: Teddy bear!
🦊: Teddy bear ok.
💜: Isn't that a puppy? lol
🦊: Ah, is this a bear?
🎵: Please do both!
🦊: Good. Last pose. Wink ok.
💜: Please do a cheek-poke wink.
#아스트로 #ASTRO #MJ #김명준 @MJ_offcl
🐥 Behind-the-scenes? Well, the story behind how I chose Okinawa is... I actually went there in the middle of my Fan-Con tour. I'm not sure if you guys knew, but I went right before the Tokyo and Yokohama shows.
I didn't have enough time to travel somewhere far, but I really wanted to visit a vacation spot since I hadn't been able to enjoy the summer at all. So I looked into a few places where I could do that—I was thinking about Thailand, the Philippines, or Vietnam...
But then I came across a video, and it happened to be of Okinawa. It looked so beautiful that it made me really want to go, so that's how I decided on Okinawa.
I did have some concerns while deciding, though. Since my previous project, 'Youth, Best Friend' (청춘, 단짝), was set in Tokyo, I was worried that because it's the same country, the vibe might be too similar. I really wanted to show you guys something different. But once I saw the final results, I was so satisfied that I have no regrets about my choice.
If you ever have the time, I’d love for you to visit the places and the accommodation where I stayed. It was honestly so good. The color of the ocean is just stunning. Just... make sure you don't keep leaving your camera behind like I did!
The video playing behind me now—maybe it'll be uploaded separately later? I worked really hard filming it. Even while I was doing the photoshoot, I’d be like, "Wait a second!" to capture some footage, then tuck the camera back in my pocket and keep going.
🐥 Another question. Yes.
🎵 I'm curious about the emotions you felt while traveling. So, I hope you can go through them one by one at each location and tell me.
🐥 While traveling, I'm actually not the type of person who travels a lot, so I felt a lot of things during this trip. When I saw the locals in Okinawa, they seemed to have a certain leeway about them. they're not doing anything in particular, they don't care about others, and they don't even look to see who has come. But I thought that was so cool.
🐥 In contrast, I'm actually very interested. I tend to look when people come. I thought that maybe I'm still lacking that kind of leeway in my heart, and that's why I'm always watching others, so I learned a lot from that.
🐥 Also, the nature is so beautiful. I realized there are so many beautiful natural places. I'm a homebody who doesn't go out much, but everyone needs to go out, right? You have to go outside, get some fresh air, and see good things.
🎵 Both are necessary, right? Time to rest at home and time spent going out are both necessary.
🐥 That's right. Both are necessary. Both are necessary, and it would be great if we could adjust that well on our own. That's why this photo essay actually contains my youth. Even after several decades pass, I can look at it with a friend like Ho-jun and say, "Wow, we really did things like this. Isn't that amazing? How did we travel so much?" I feel so proud that I've created memories and stories to share.
🎵 Have you ever spaced out because you were so happy?
🐥 I have spaced out. I always spaced out while looking at the ocean. I did Bada-meong (spacing out while looking at the sea). Since it's the end of the year and a new one is coming, don't you have a vacation?
💜 I don't have a vacation.
🐥 Why don't you have a vacation?
💜 I used all my annual leave to see Sanha.
🐥 Oh, I understand that. I'd like you to go there later when you have time.
If my next photo essay comes out.
🎵 How about a cold place?
🐥 Yes, a cold place. A cold place is good. I think cold places would come out very pretty, especially with snow. I'm considering several places, but I do want to visit the US. But as you know, the expense is high in the US. So the budget...
🎵 I'll buy a lot of photo essays
🐥 No. I've never been to Europe. I haven't been there much for schedules either, so I want to try a European trip.
🎵 Iceland.
🐥 I heard Iceland opened up, like a direct flight.
🎵 I like Iceland.
🐥 I'll ask Eunwoo Hyung about Iceland. Yes. I want to go everywhere. Next year? Go every year? Every year, you're saying I must go at least once a year, right? Yes, that's my goal. Once a year.
🎵 For vacation.
🐥 Yes, for a vacation. Not for work, but for a vacation. Yes, I want to go everywhere. I also want to visit South America, Thailand, Taiwan, and Hong Kong, which I visited for work this time. I want to go everywhere. Yes, I want to travel domestically too.
💜 All of us.
🐥 All of us? Where should we go all together? Sanha Tour. I'm not a planner... Yes, it would be great to hold an event like that later—traveling with the fans. We would need a participation fee, each paying their own way. Okay. Someday.