Frontal lobe development is one thing but on a deeper more spiritual level… everyone in life will experience an ego death and the timing of it is above you.
I highly recommend you find yourself a clingy (healthy) lovey dovey partner who's super excited about you. Life is too short to spend it with someone who act like showing love is a chore.
Respectfully, I do not go above and beyond for people like I use to anymore. I meet you as far as you meet me. I speak to you as much as you speak to me. I include you as much as you include me.
i've sat with myself for years. i analyzed everything i have done wrong, could have done better. and even still, i couldn't find a point in time where i deserved to be treated the way a lot of people treated me. but i still hold my head up and win in the end.