paranoia

i have that weird self-esteem issue where i hate myself but still think i’m better than anyone else | ENG/PL | she/her

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

im currently experiencing life in third person

[Buck @Buck36043Buck]

Who up Uncomfortable in their Prison of a Body

[Buck @Buck36043Buck]

Substance Abuse Saturday

[Nunnie The G @NunnieTheG]

"Come over whenever, I'm always home" Was probably the loudest cry for help yet no one came.

[Fawn/Finn @bluebutchdeer]

I think for having bpd I should be allowed to kill myself and then instantly come back to life at a minimum of 3x a month

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

i dont deserve him

[hersch @tittyrespecter]

i can't tell if the pain in my chest is from stimulant abuse, nicotine addiction, or unrequited love

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

@cookie_of_decit the “morning even happened” part was so funny im gonna use it from now on

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

the sexual tension between me and escape

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

the past three months broke me in ways i didn’t even know i could be broken, and i hate myself for the way i am right now because i see how much this hurts him, but because of that i’m spiralling even more so i end up being worse
i need to disappear for a while

[jules @gaythotgirlson]

and one million cigarettes for the lady

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

i made breakfast 😚✌🏻

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

i put them together in their favourite blanket so they are buried together

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

i found her body and took a piece of her fur and her eye was missing

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

but i have her whiskers at least

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

2018 was the worst year and stuff but i didnt have to bury my cats

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

and i cut a piece of her fur and i wish i could do the same for emula but there’s no body

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

and i dont even have one of their bodies, they couldn’t find her body or she burned, i have to pretend there are both of them

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

if iwas there with both of them they wouldnt be dying alone

[paranoia @deadmerm4id]

@clairooooo25 yeah, it’s a nice number plus i’ll be exactly bmi 10 and it positively ticks my brain