everything just keeps getting worse I associate myself with people who hurt me constantly and one of the few that I actually consider a friend that has never hurt me once is dead nowwhat the fuck do I do
I want to scream on the top of my lungs but that’d do absolutely nothing, nothing will ever bring him back and I want nothing more then to disappear forever
these things keep happening to me I tell myself it’ll all stop eventually but I can’t believe that anymore after my closest friend is probably dead he’s helped me through so much by just staying with me and now hes gone before I could tell him how much he meant to me
apparently siding with someone is when you don’t want to be in a situation, not once have I ever said I supported his actions not once have I defended his actions, you’re so quick to attack me I’ve done nothing
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to maintain a healthy relationship, it feels nice to know you’re cared about but it feels even better when someone who shamelessly hates you yet keeps you in their life gives you a small amount of validation then hurts you again