Alex 🦨

“I don’t eat, I don’t sleep, I do nothing but think of you” 🤍🪦 #drugtwt

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

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`· . looking for moots .ᐟ.ᐟ
꒰ #promotwt , #moothunt ꒱

─ she / her ﹒ 14
─ Bipolar / Bpd

↳ ♡ or ↻ to be moots ₊⊹

꒰#drugtwt ꒱

(Yes I’m diagnosed with bpd at 14 leave me alone)

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I’m crying listening to codeine pills by Zach bryan. I wish I could stop using codeine but I just can’t. I should’ve listened when they told me they were highly addictive.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Me and my bf dry humped. This might be tmi. I feel like such a whore. Maybe the purity culture is getting to me. I’m really stern on not losing my virginity until marriage, now I feel I’ve lost all my value as a woman. But I only feel this way about myself not other women.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

How poetic

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

speaking in itself is its own way of dying. you don’t lose yourself as much as you would if you chose not to speak, but being vulnerable with someone in that sense is another way of dying. but you will always die if you do not speak.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Again I’ll talk about this. It’s better to die. I’m sorry. It just is. In today’s society no one cares no one will listen if you speak. It’s hard to speak. That’s why I have this anonymous twitter to express my feelings without judgement, without people ignoring me or not caring.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I have emotional, motion sickness. Someone roll the windows down. There are no words in the English language I could scream to drown you out. Why do you sing with a English accent? I guess it too late to change it now. You know I’ll let you have but, I will try to drown you out.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

“Is it better to speak or to die?” Is it bad that I think it’s better to die? I’m my own experience whenever I spoke no one cared nor listened. Then you just bottle up all that was to be said. Sooner or later it’ll over flow and you end up taking your life.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Oml hip cutting hurts like hell im just trying to take a piss and it’s straight terror

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

It’s a heart

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Cuts from last night still bleeding why.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Crying more. I hate teenage boys.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I’m crying and you’re sending me lustful messages. Do not hit up my phone.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

They were finally happy? Why why why. Why can’t people just me happy. Why does everyone have to suffer.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

“Just love me and eat. Bones and all.” I’m crying again I just redid my eyeliner

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I want to be eaten alive.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I’m geeked, I’m crying, my eyeliners fycked, my bf is out on the town, I’m gonna kms.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

The concept of someone loving you so much they’ll eat you right done to the bone.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

Every fucking time this stupid movie gets me so hung. I’m never watching bones and all again. I always say that but it’s still one my comfort films.

[Alex 🦨 @dearstdoll]

I’m watching bones and all