People always assume depression means you’re sad and crying all the time. Real depression feels like being stuck in a fog. You can’t think, you don’t respond to things, nothing is interesting, and you just feel empty. Not sad, just blank.
“But you survived” NO I disassociate, like A LOT. My heart drops when someone raises their voice. I shut down very easily. And I'm far too observant. I always feel like a burden. I isolate often. But yeah, sure, I guess I survived.
WHAT IS IT CALLED WHEN YOUR SELF ESTEEM IS EXTREMELY LOW, BUT YOUR EGO IS HIGH, I MEAN YOU HATĒ YOURSELF, BUT YOU STILL THINK YOU’RE STILL BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE.
no one talks about how draining it is when your mood constantly switches between "keep going, it will get better" and "i can't do this anymore, im about to give up." it's like living in emotional whiplash. one hour you're hopeful, the next you're spiraling