I’ve learned a lot about friendship in the past 6 months and truly it’s helped me grow in ways I didn’t think I could. My biggest take away is… you can’t keep a friendship with someone who doesn’t want to be your friend. People make an effort for who they want. Always.
Fitness influencer Kendall Toole reacts to becoming a meme:
“Never been so proud to have said this in my life. We stand on business, get them banned yall.”
I remember the time I went to the ER 3 months postpartum because I couldn’t stop vomiting and my chest felt tight. I kept telling them: this isn’t anxiety. Something is wrong.
The nurse glanced at my chart and said, “A lot of new moms feel overwhelmed.”
A resident came in, barely looked at me, and said, “It’s probably a panic attack. Try to relax.”
They left me in a hallway bed. No monitor. No urgency. Just that look that says you’re being dramatic.
I whispered, “I think I’m going to pass out.”
He laughed and said, “You’re safe here. You’re not dying.”
Ten minutes later I stood up and collapsed.
Suddenly there were doctors everywhere. Suddenly they checked my oxygen. Suddenly they rushed me to imaging.
CT scan: pulmonary embolism. Blood clots in my lungs.
The same doctor who told me to “relax” came back acting shocked.
He said, “Good thing you came in.”
I looked at him and thought: I didn’t just come in. I begged to be taken seriously.
Why am I telling you this?
Because if I didn’t collapse in front of them, I genuinely think I would’ve been sent home with “anxiety” and a pamphlet about breathing exercises
Yesterday I woke up to a beautiful woman cooking me lunch for work. That same beautiful woman also bought me tickets to see #Hamilton in theaters. To think that this time last year I was in a VERY different place. (IYKYK) and today I’m so happy. And secure.