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i want to d** lol
left this acc 👋🏻
my comfort is prod by suga | f1

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

and life got worse again
i can't do this anymore
and as i've seen i'm not missed here anyways so i'll finally leave. thinking of my moots i interacted with a lot 💔 thank you

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

@BTS_twt it feels like everyone already forgot about me on here and that is the worst feeling. like i could be de*d for all they know, i dont matter at all
and the selfh*rming never feels enough, it's never deep enough, it heals too quickly etc

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

@BTS_twt they're probably not even watching anymore
bc im worthless and pathetic, a waste of time and effort

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

@BTS_twt i started self harming 4 weeks ago, it never feels like enough. everyone i cared about& thought to be my friends already seem to have forgotten me
who would even want to be "friends" with me, the mess that i am
further heading down the one-way road while everyone is just watching

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

one way or another this is my last tweet here

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

i literally have no one even when i'm at my lowest lowest point and would really need someone, and need to know that people care and it's completely messing with me. i'm so broken mentally, i can barely function and i'm living in my own head. life is not worth living

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

can't believe i'm typing this but
rip my sweet angel 🤍🕊
thank you for spending 14 years with me

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

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[d⁷ @def1artsy]

i want to d** so bad
i'm already forgotten anyways
again
ik i'm the problem

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

i don't deserve any of you
i'm sorry

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

daily passive suicidal thoughts. i dread every waking minute. this is not a life and certainly not worth living

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

do you genuinely not see my tweets on your tl's? but even if...if i were important to someone they'd think of and check up on me, even if they don't see me on their tl's, right?
i deactivated for a month too and no one seemed to notice...
i'm scared of saying this but no one +

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

depression brain this is just another proof once again that i'm worthless. 2 years of suffering, while everything getting gradually worse, the universe showing me opportunities that would provide some much much needed serotonin but then snatching them away, over a year of

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

how am i still supposed to think that life is worth living?
"it will get better" i've been waiting for it to get better for 2 YEARS. i'm tired. i want it all to stop. im so so numb while feeling everything at once
idk if i'll come back here

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

i think everyone already forgot about me here lol but anyways
yk i crave serotonin so much in my current state but it's like the universe shows me what could be and as i'm reaching out my hands it snatches it out of reach. so besides the usual feeling pathetic, worthless etc

[d⁷ @def1artsy]

the WHOLE WEEKEND at the START FINISH STRAIGHT. that would honestly be a once in a lifetime opportunity. it would have been incredible but no, it doesn't work out bc of my sister
i'm sick again
and just today one of our cats was diagnosed witha tumor in her bladder and im scared