Defeating BPD

My heart wants to let you in so bad but my mind won’t allow it. How is it possible that I love and hate you, both at the same time? I’m so scared you’ll leave.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

That guilty feeling you get after your head has cooled down after flipping out on someone and you realise that you may have over reacted a tiny bit.

Unfortunately our minds amplify the smaller things, and they become so much bigger than us.

#bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

@j_christia You like DJs?

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

I haven’t posted in a while because i’ve been trying to get myself together the past few weeks. My emotions have been all over the place, and i’ve been hurting real bad, but i’ve managed to pull through and it’s about time I start to kick BPD’s butt. #goodvibes

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

It’s bittersweet knowing that someone is 100x happier because they decided to stay away from you.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Apologies don’t mean anything to me - I don’t want words, I want actions

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

For me, the fear of abandonment is the scariest thing in the world. I would rather be alone forever, than to have someone temporarily exist in my life.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Is it wrong for me to punish someone for hurting me in the past?

It’s so hard to forget and move on. Everything about them is a constant reminder of how much they hurt me.

Why won’t my BPD allow second chances?

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

I can’t shake this empty feeling. I can’t organise my jumbled mind. I feel like an unfixable mess.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Have you ever been so scared of losing someone, that the fear itself has actually lead you to losing that someone?

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

I am sorry for the distance that I create, but I have to brace myself for impact. I’m scared to crash and burn again, and whether or not that happens, I have to be ready this time.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Uncontrollable emotions are the reason why none of my relationships have ever worked out. Trying to find the right people that will understand me at my worst days, because i’m willing to give them the world on my best days.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

The thing is sometimes we choose to be alone because we feel we can prevent ourselves from getting hurt, but in reality we also hurt ourselves by denying ourselves of the love and attention that certain people are capable of giving us. But what can we do? We’re just scared.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

@AnoninPtbo I fight them everyday my self, and it’s not easy! Keep fighting, i’m here you ever need someone to talk to :)

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

@AnoninPtbo ❤️ you are so much stronger than these demons. You are amazing xx

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

I wanted to say thank you to the people that reached out to me. I created this twitter as a means to vent and let my frustrations out, but I did not expect to find so many amazing people who are also fighting a similar battle that I am. Thank you for making me feel like I matter.

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Someone please help me. At this very moment, so much hate and anger burns inside me. I don’t know how to handle it all

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Learning to forget and forgive is one of the hardest things for me to do. Be careful with me, because if you shatter me, you may find your self trying to put back the broken pieces for longer than you expected.

#BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[Mental Health Girl @AnoninPtbo]

I’m still amazed at how much my mood cycles throughout the day. Anxious/angry/agitated/numb/sad and so on. I’m exhausted from all that goes on inside my head. #bpd #depression #anxiety

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

Not being able to differentiate between truth and lie. I don’t know what is actually real anymore.

#BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

I���m sorry for being difficult. I wish my mind stopped creating problems that didn’t have to exist. Do I create these problems just to to see if you would stay by my side to and help me solve them? I know it doesn’t make sense. ��

#BPD #borderlinepersonalitydisorder

[Defeating BPD @defeatingBPD]

@AnoninPtbo I can relate so much to this