Unfortunately, I have to admit that I have not done my best. My current situation is a direct consequence of my incompetence. I suck at doing this life thing.
I think I lost my spark. I don’t talk as much, I keep to myself, and I’ve mastered the art of distance. It’s not that I’m mad or bitter. I just do not have the energy to show up the way I used to. Somewhere along the way, I slipped into this “I don’t care” phase..
Being a firm believer in academic validation and surrounding yourself with friends who take it very seriously is one of the best things ever. And if your family also doesn’t joke with academics, you’ve honestly won in life.