It was my mom’s 60th birthday yesterday and all I did was send her a Happy Birthday text.
I am unable to feel excitement or joy in these things… because on my birthday all I got was a happy birthday email, with an attachment and a request of helping with that document. Work.
For now I will endure, and I will definitely survive this. The lack of money, the LACK of family, and the loneliness with it. Establishing a relationship or a family requires a certain level of understanding. Not one sidedness. Not when only one benefits from it.
This.. brewing anger.. becoming indifference. I am so mentally tired right now that I am not able to even speak.
I have two dogs (now only one) and my sister does not have the slightest capacity or empathy for them.
Sacrificing for me is a thing that has rarely occurred.
I can’t wait to live thousands of kms away. This is getting exhausting. As in. I’m so glad i’m able to put up boundaries this time. Of not jumping on every whim and request. I no longer have anything to give at this point. No energy, no time. No money. Nemo dat quod non habet
And a year after that, this year, I moved out and had my first apartment. The room is small, it’s near school, but it’s so perfect for me. It feels like a home to me.
I’m in my 3rd year of Med now. Life is still beautiful and is getting more beautiful. 🥹
Last year I decided to have a dorm with my classmate and friend, Cel. I’m so lucky that we found each other, and we helped each other out. That was my first taste of “moving out” or independence. I loved it.
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