I don’t think we talk enough about how exhausting it is to be disappointed by someone you were genuinely excited about in the early dating phase, and just having to bury those emotions and go about your life like they didn’t even exist. Over and over again.
You can literally feel it in your soul when it's TIME. time to move on from people, time to make a change in your life, time to get rid of unhealthy habits, time to want MORE for yourself. At some point, you'll just KNOW. That's your call.
I want anniversaries. I want someone to look at me and can't imagine life without me. I want unconditional love. I want healthy communication. I want the fireworks that never die. Butterflies even after we're months/years in. I want year(s) with someone.
one thing... I CAN NOT STAND.... is being ignored. if you're busy, say so. if you are not in the mood to talk, say so. if you are done with me, SAY SO. COMMUNICATE.
The hardest part about growing up is that the show must go on . You could be going through the roughest patches , the lowest of lows , the basement of rock bottom with no sign of light . You still have to show up , act your part and be good at it .
If love finds me again, I hope it comes from a person who is willing to treat me right. A person who never makes me question my worth, a person who doesn't make me beg for love and doesn't make me feel stupid in love.