Idk, I really appreciate my bf sm cause if he wasn’t here I’d fr just crash out and die cause idc but he helps me understand what’s going on when my brain clocks out and helps me find the words to talk to advocate for myself/helps me to do it. It all just breaks me down so easily
So I get meds tomorrow finally!!!! I have to go in store but it’ll be significantly cheaper so 🤷♀️ I made a lot of big phone calls today so maybe I’ll take a walk and try to think of a nice reward type thing?
I really need to get into using my crystals and cleansing my energy. I’ve been using this cleansing energy candle the past few days and trying to destress but idk. I’ve never been good with mindfulness and sitting with my thoughts :( any advice?
i’m so tired of this disorder. i’m so tired of looking in the mirror and being ashamed of my body. i’m tired of constantly trying to weigh myself and only focus on losing weight but i’ll hate myself if i don’t
Guys pls be proud of me I brought something up to my bf right as it was bothering me instead of wallowing and gaslighting myself for nothing!! Progress?? After I explained things I think he realized he needs to be more thorough because our brains are SO DIFFERENT and I spiral 🫠
At least I didn’t feel bad taking mental bc’s in the mirror reflection because I can still see a gap. I just hate it’s only at certain angles. I hate my thighs. I hate my muscles.
Realizing I only have the desire to say anything to my father whenever he bothers to acknowledge me so since he was the only one not to tell me happy birthday I don’t gaf about saying anything today or any day. Idc. You’re not a father to me. You only care when you want so 🤷♀️