@HollowWacc u put $10 in the game one time and u have every single rift for the rest of ur life. at some point these skins cost u less than 1 cent. the rift has always had some new skins and some recolors. shouldn’t matter which tier they’re in.
CPTSD is sitting alone on your birthday and telling yourself you prefer it this way. It's convincing yourself you don't need people when the truth is you needed people so badly once and they weren't there. So you stopped needing them before they could leave first. Loneliness you chose still feels safer than abandonment you didn't.
How to explain that CPTSD isn’t “bad stuff happened to me and I need to talk through it” but “so much bad stuff happened to me for so long that I have a rewired nervous system and don’t know how to relate to this world where my life isn’t actually in peril every single moment?”