— anyone else... but who would of thought, those fuckers thought of that too... "
another reaction of pain as eyes closed, a hiss as that one was more painful than the last, " i'm a victim too, sure but. . . fuck, it's my own damn fault, isn't it? i just want to be me again. "
" you don't think i'm pissed? that i'm angry beyond words? but it's been years, man... they've controlled me for half of that! "
there's a soft exhale, another wince, looking away, " i've taken out on myself, taken it out on others... tried to take myself out so i didn't hurt —
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“ worry? course i'm gonna worry! this makes 𝘺𝘰𝘶 one'a their victims too??? don't that piss you off? don't that make you wanna wreck shit!? i ain't you but man, it's pissin' me off! ”
he doesn't even know her name. he doesn't know shit except fairfax was involved.
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— only because it did. a strong pain tore through her body.
" and when i talk about it... i feel like... . . . it doesn't matter. it just... doesn't matter. i'm stuck for now. i'm stuck. don't worry about me, okay? i'll get my karma one day too... "
there's a wince as the mailbox is kicked down, a soft exhale to calm her nerves... it wasn't the first time that someone had assumed her wearing the fairfax name on her employee badge meant that she followed them...
but this time it was worse.
this time, she was stuck under —
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despite her being an employee of fairfax, seems very clear that she knows it's shit and hearing they tricked her like that? oh, it makes his blood boil.
“ those sneaky, rotten FUCKS. the fact they'd do that shit?? MAN. ”
kicks over a mailbox. oh. okay.
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— their name.
there's a weak smile at him now, " i'm working on it... but it's not that easy. they tell me a command, i do it... not me... my body. "
glancing away, " kill this person, hide this incident... "
a soft exhale, a clear wince, as though talking about hurt her, —
— actually... i'll probably stay at the baroness after. i still don't trust my apartment after i found those weird listening devices... "
a palm gently moved to rub at her forehead as though trying to comfort away a headache.
" i want that man dead, " it was murmured softly, however impossible it was... samara wanted nothing more than maximilian's head now. eyes opened as the other pulled away finally.
instantly, she missed that comfort but... she didn't want to be desperate or show herself as —
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excellent , darling . just you wait , as soon as we find some good dirt , i'll get you out of there . and you'll be free , wouldn't that be great ?
[ he began brushing samara's hair aside , humming quietly . it was honestly unprofessional of him to be so close , —
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— needy for someone who had protected her.
even if she had wanted to find another lawyer, someone who wouldn't blur lines and boundaries of whatever they had... who could she trust? most of the people in the city were in fairfax's pocket.
" dinner sounds... very nice, —
there's a scoff from her, " wouldn't i know it better than anyone else? "
a glance over at the stranger, trying to calm her nerves, " i'm in a pact with them... not willingly. they hid it in regular employee paperwork. "
palms gently rub her eyes afterwards, giving a frown —
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ugh, you know fairfax is just bleedin' new york dry, right @devilsado? that place is nothin' more than lies and shady business wrapped up in a corporate bow.
( ooh, someone's aggressive. he can smell the fairfax on her. )
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— always been that she felt she had a choice but the first time that she had said no to handling a situation, to taking someone out and disposing of them when they filed a complaint... that was the first time she had no way to escape it.
she had to follow through.
" maybe... "
" am i doing good? "
it was asked softly, " i swear the commands are getting stronger... each time i fight them, the worse it is. "
eyes closed again, trying to forget the feeling of control slipping from her when she was asked to do handle a situation. at first, it had —
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all good , you're on the right side of the fight at least
[ he gives a small pat to her head before sighing quietly ]
it'll be difficult , but we're both doing good . if needed , i can also take care of some ... loose ends .
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