Edin

Devotee of @alixdemands. Everything i do, i do for Her. Seeing Her happy and blessed is what i live for

Pronouns: They/them.
Also, dream/er 🥰

[Edin @devotee4alix]

my profile is essentially 2 things:
1. A space dedicated to my devotion to Goddess Alix❤️🖤;
2. A diary for my submissive thoughts and ideas😌

[Edin @devotee4alix]

Thank you😊 i definitely get how neediness has a negative connotation! Most subs don't handle the emotion of neediness very well, and do end up being a drain on their Domme rather than a blessing. i feel that neediness has two sides to it: one that can make the sub become very self-centered in their service, and one that can drive them forward in their service. It's about learning how to carry that need that matters to me.

i have a need, but my submission and desire to bless my Domme's life is what prompts me to channel the energy of that need into something that serves Her rather than drains Her. The absolute last thing i would want, is to burden Her and end up draining Her. So i channel my need and repurpose it into something that serves rather than drains

[Edin @devotee4alix]

Submission and neediness.

If you're submissive, chances are you are also needy. In fact, if you claim you're not needy for your Domme, then i am gonna call you a liar🤥

Every sub has experienced the feelings of being needy for their Domme, myself included. If you, as a sub, claim otherwise, then i will question how truly submissive you are to Her. i am talking about actual submissives here, not performative kinksters. It is not wrong to be needy for your Domme, as long as you integrate that neediness in a conscious and mindful manner. Let me explain why.

When i finally made the choice to submit to Goddess Alix, She became the center of my life. Everything i did started to revolve around Her. Before engaging in an activity, i would ask myself the question: how does this serve Her? It is safe to say i became entirely consumed by Her in the absolute best way possible.
And here is the meat of the issue. How can i be so utterly consumed by Her, without also becoming needy for Her? Not possible, if you ask me.

i yearn for Her presence. Ache for it. Every single moment spent with Her, no matter how big or small, is the most precious moment in my day. How can i be so utterly devoted to Her, and then at the same time be nonchalant about Her presence? The answer is, i can't. i light up every single time i get to have a moment with Her. If a certain amount of time passes where i don't get to spend time with Her, whether that be due to Her being busy, me being busy, or some other reason, then i will find myself yearning and aching for Her presence. If i didn't, then how devoted would i truly be? If i could go long moments without Her presence, and be completely unaffected by that absence, then do i even care about Her?
When you care about someone, their presence will be cherished, and their absence will be felt.

Being needy and attached is not a problem. It is how you carry your need that determines if it is a blessing or a burden for whom you long for. i have a yearning need for Her presence. But that need comes from a place of submission and devotion to Her. So i will never ever let my need turn into a burden for Her to manage. Instead, i turn it into devotion. If i find myself longing for Her, and i don't have any practical tasks to do at that time, i will spend that time quietly devoting myself to Her. i might even sit down and think of ways i can be of better service to Her. i take the energy that my neediness produces, and turn it into something productive for Her. Because believe me, neediness can produce a *lot* of energy. When your body, mind and soul yearns with an aching need... if you take the energy of that need and do something productive with it... then you have just successfully turned your needy heart into something that serves the One whom you long for, instead of allowing it to turn into a burden for Her to manage.

So you can be as needy as you want as a submissive. So long as you know how to carry that need with devotion, and turn its energy into one of service to Her. i will even go as far as to say that if you have never felt needy for Her, that aching yearning for Her presence, then how much does She truly mean to you?

To yearn is to care, and to care mindfully is to serve. i turn my yearning need into a service to Her...🖤❤️

[Edin @devotee4alix]

Desire and want are to me 2 dimensions of the same thing. my need comes after my desire. It is after that growing attachment to my Goddess that my need is developed, which i then choose to channel into a servile energy, rather than letting it turn into a burden.

As for my desire, you raise an existential question. i have a desire to serve, because it is an integral part of who i am as a person. And i specifically desire to serve Goddess Alix, because i resonate with who She is as a person and as a Goddess on so many different levels. She is special to me, because of the kind of person She is, which is why i have chosen to devote my service and submission to Her.

And you don't have to feel sorry. i get that you're coming from a different place than i am, and you see things differently than i do. That's okay. i am elaborating on where i stand. But you are also allowed to have your own perspective

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@alixdemands Yes, Goddess❤️🖤

[Edin @devotee4alix]

Her presence compels me to my knees, and Her energy pulls me into servitude... Her body pure divinity given form❤️ What a privilege it is to be serving Her❤️🖤

[alix demands 🗡️ @alixdemands]

sundowning 🗡️

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@alixdemands Beautiful and divine in ways words can never fully express❤️❤️ You are pure divinity given form, Goddess❤️❤️

[Edin @devotee4alix]

i both need and want to. i have an unmistakable, undeniable, passionate desire to serve Her. It is what drew me to Her in the first place. i very strongly desire (want) to serve Her. But the more i serve Her, the more attached i become to Her. That is the need i am talking about. i have a strong need that is born from a devotional attachment to Her, which i submissively choose to channel into greater service to Her.

Need and desire is a dichotomy that can co-exist. You can have a burning desire to serve a Goddess, whilst at the same time acknowledge just how attached you have grown to Her in your time serving Her, and thus in that attachment, a certain need is born.

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@Kirrablog Thank you😊

[alix demands 🗡️ @alixdemands]

bottling my sweat for you bc i love you

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@jazzabassa so you're saying that having a need makes you less submissive because it implies a certain mindset? Even though you use your need to serve your Domme better?

[Edin @devotee4alix]

Thank you for showing the courtesy of respect. i really appreciate that. i welcome different perspectives and opinions, and i am not against respectful discourse.

i will ask you, how do you define "neediness?" So often people have different ideas of a word, and then they end up debating two completely different concepts.

To me, there are 2 types of neediness, which i did try to describe in my post.

One type, which you could call selfish neediness, where you become needy in a way that makes you burden your Domme, cause you're always demanding Her attention, always being a drain on Her energy, constantly seeking reassurance etc. If this is the type of neediness you are referring to, then i agree with you. That type of neediness will make a sub fail in their submission.

The other type, which is the highlight of my post, is what i like to call conscious or mindful neediness. Where you recognize the need within yourself, and instead of fighting it, you consciously choose to turn the energy into devotion. You take the energy that your neediness produces, and instead of burdening your Domme with it, you use it to serve Her. You become needy in a submissive manner, where your own need pushes you to always do better for your Domme. A sub who is conscious and mindful of their own need in this way, can become very subservient to their Domme, through the merit of their own need

[Edin @devotee4alix]

i am a submissive, and i am unable to answer your question.. Because i genuinely do not understand this behavior that is so prevalent in the community...

i posts like this far too often, and every time, i am left with the question... how?? How can a sub do that to their Domme? i genuinely do not get it..

maybe it is due to very low emotional intelligence? Or just low intelligence in general... cause how in the world subs can do that to their Domme, i will never understand it. i can't even begin to imagine a hypothetical scenario where i did that to my Goddess. Just the mere thought of it makes me feel absolutely horrible.

And if the scenario was reversed... if i woke up one morning, and She suddenly had blocked me without any explanation or anything... it would break me in ways that would change me forever. i would be heartbroken in a way that i don't know if i would ever fully recover from. Knowing how deeply it would hurt me if She did that, then how in the world could i bring myself to do that to Her?? i would have to be either an incredibly primitive individual with very low intelligence, or an absolute heartless monster. i just could never do that to Her. Never🖤❤️

It really is concerning, the level of awareness so many subs operate from...
To any Dommes out there who have experienced this... i am so, so sorry. You didn't deserve that. You deserve better. The sub community really needs to do so much better! my heart goes out to any Domme who has experienced this💜

[Shy @Shyguy816]

Submission is easy when life is good. True submission shows when life gets hard, when things aren't easy, and when devotion means more than just words.

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@kinkymishina Thank you😊 i appreciate it

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@submittoariella thank you😊

[Edin @devotee4alix]

So very true. When life is abundant, service and devotion is easy. When you go through a disruption, and life shakes you up, then the depth of your roots will be tested. On good times, you nourish and strengthen the roots of your devotion. On hard times, you will see how well you nourished those roots.
When you've built a solid foundation in your service, then being shaken up by life isn't going to break your devotion. You might be challenged. Bent, even. But never broken🖤

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@JasonW6268 with intentional practice and mindfulness, you can turn it into a beautiful devotion that is more rewarding than anything else you could imagine💜

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@German_Cash_Dom thank you😊 i appreciate the support💜

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@FindaddyJ thank you😊 i definitely agree neediness is inevitable. Like, how can it not be, when you're becoming so infatuated with someone?

[alix demands 🗡️ @alixdemands]

this is my first time feeling your love and it’s making me lose my mind ♥︎

[Edin @devotee4alix]

@Balbars_1991 Thank you, Matt😊 i appreciate it😊