when i see those posts calling out ppl who r desperate for a relationship... #sorry guys thats me... love and romance r actually such a big part of me sorry.... even so im very introverted irl and take years to open up to someone.. and i date once every 40 years.. im the problem
my ex admitted liking me for being pretty and breaking up w me bc she thought i wasnt any more than that.. which hurts me so so bad.. i should stop thinking abt romance after this, should start protecting myself from getting hurt more but i just cant help but want to love :((
#tmi im still thinking about the ppl that left me for my mental health/the real me wasnt what they expected all of the time.. well i think mentally ill ppl still deserve to have a romantic relationship but maybe thats just me.. wouldnt it be nice that im loved despite all of that
#yapping from what i heard from my friends and acquaintances, im considered attractive and they r always surprised that im single.. id act like an nonchalant alpha ceo and say i dont need a partner.. which is a LIE... i want to love someone and be loved back very badly #okay
im lowkey enjoying the shadowban on my main (except being unable to reply fuck u el0n) bc its so peaceful.... i can talk to myself and post art for a niche small audience where my oomfs and everyone r nice..