Sage (-40lbs)

Adult. Queer. Here to vent, cope, and chill. DNI: Minors

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

I feel like there's something innately wrong with me. Like, there's these rotting and infected parts in me that others can see--can smell--and they're repulsed by it, but they won't say it. And I can't see it.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

I almost broke my fast but was able to talk myself out of it and focus on staying hydrated.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

So I struggle to see progress day-to-day but I recently had a look at my license and it's actually crazy to see how much my face has changed since my highest weight. Which was motivating.

[𝐖 𝐄 𝐍 ✧ @DIETWEN]

Fake it till you make it is real I promise

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

The delusion of me constantly body checking and thinking there’s a notable difference as if I’m not HUGE still.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

@JUNIPERSB0DY It's probably because eating disorders impair your immune system which can make you more susceptible to infectious disease like TB. And TB is on the rise currently.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

I literally feel so directionless right now. Like i haven't gained weight or lost weight but I just...I don't know what I'm doing. I have no solid plain, I tried upping my calories to be healthier and more reasonable but I just feel shitty and my weight keeps fluctuating.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

@punaneater Do you smoke/vape? Or have allergies? Cobblestone throat is enlarged lymphatic tissue in the tonsils and adenoids that can appear as one or multiple bumps and can cause irritation. Stress can also cause it or other irritants. Hopefully it’s nothing serious!!

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

@punaneater Cobblestone throat from acid reflux maybe??

[🤍 @yslskinny2]

All of the Black Victoria’s Secret Angels 👼🏾🎀🪽

Although there weren’t many, I’m still glad there were any 😭🙌🏾 at the end are some notable mentions to black VS models in general 🤍

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

these last few weeks have been weird and difficult but I'm trying hard to get my shit together and 'lock it in' or whatever the fuck.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

@aspartameangel that is always an awful and emotionally draining experience. i hope that you're able to take time to process for yourself.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

I have been dealing with chronic pain flare up and I ordered shitty fast food as a way to cope (stupid) and now I feel guilty about wanting to throw it out but I also don’t want to eat it. It’ll put me at like 3000kcals and it’s trash food anyway, like.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

Sweet potatoes and a power outage for lunch.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

Just thought about how I had my therapist for more than a decade starting in adolescence and they played such a pivotal role in my life just for me to go back to them years later and for them to tell me I was, and still am, the most difficult client they've ever had.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

659 kcals. Trying to eat more calories in the morning to see if it keeps me feeling better through my 10hr shifts.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

alternatively titled Me When I Binge

[Academia Aesthetics @AcademiaAesthe1]

Saturn Devouring his Son, by Francisco de Goya.

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

@bunnycrisis_ It is truly a soul sucking game 😭

[Sage (-40lbs) @devouringteeth]

╰┈➤ U p d a t e d I n t r o {#edtwt}

✧ Sage
✧ 30
✧ masc lesbian
✧ DNI: Minors
✧ Pro-recovery
✧ Interests: literary quotes, art, video games, i play way too much fortnite, music, oddities, true crime, crying into half baked ben and jerry.

↻ or ♡ to be moots

[Academia Aesthetics @AcademiaAesthe1]

Serge Marshennikov