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22, ana-r & ortho :P bmi 20 jail x_x ed diary

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

hiii new to #edtwt lol i relapsed after 3 years of recovery :P here’s my intro

• diagnosed ana-r, ortho, autistic, ocd, and cptsd
• dni under 16 or fatphobic
• i love the color blue, matcha, studying, fashion, literature, singing, & photography

some of my pics 🎧🍵🌺🫐…

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i genuinely thought i was going to die i thought i was just having a panic attack or something but then i started vomiting and couldn’t keep down water when i don’t even purge. my skin (a golden brown) was almost ghost white and my lips were a pale purple it was awful

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

yesterday was so scary i started convulsing and vomiting uncontrollably. i passed out in the er when my boyfriend took me and even had to get a ct scan and multiple ivs. it was a serious wake up call :P pls recover bc this disorder will kill you and it will be painful

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

guys i think im gonna recover

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

guys i think im gonna recover

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

when i just came for dehydration bc i started throwing up uncontrollably and the saxophones genuinely start getting louder

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i’m
in si much pain

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

everyone’s lives would be so much better without me in it i just want to waste away into nothingness i hope this disorder will finally put me out of my misery

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i wish i was dead like seriously

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i don’t know if it’s just my anxiety but it feels like i can’t catch my breath like when i breathe it’s not enough to feel oxygenated but i feel like im making everything up and it’s all in my head

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

my head hurts so bad i cried so much last night yesterday was awful and i couldn’t stay asleep longer than 10 minutes

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

my head hurts so bad i cried so much last night yesterday was awful and i couldn’t stay asleep longer than 10 minutes

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

my head hurts so bad

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i was in and out of consciousness for 20 minutes and couldn’t breathe after practice but yeah no the hospital can’t do anything and seeking medical attention is pointless!! it’s all in my head and i will never be sick enough!!!! lol

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

at what point is seeking medical attention necessary? i’m constantly dizzy and weak and nauseous and getting winded doing literally nothing and having heart palpitations but i don’t feel like it’s that bad like how do i know when i need to get checked out

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i don’t want to break my fast im not sick enough i will never be sick enough

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

honestly i hope i fucking die i hope my heart stops in my sleep or something i dont care

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

honestly i hope i fucking die i hope my heart stops in my sleep or something i dont care

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

#bodycheck leg bc from before practice :P i don’t think i will ever be sick enough and i can’t even stand to look at myself anymore :// i hate this so much

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

volleyball practice till 9pm then i break my fast after 🦖 shaking rly bad but it will be fine i think

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i got upset so im restricting to cope lol. breaking my fast after practice 🐶🐶🐶 i don’t even have an appetite anymore anyways

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i have volleyball practice today 7-9pm i’m kinda wanting to fast until after but also i will be so fucking embarrassed if i pass out or something 😭 ugh i dunno what to do, is it better to break a fast before or after working out ?

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

i had the 270mg caffeine celsius like the big one and i’m actually tweaking i feel unstoppable

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scrolling thru #edtwt like it’s the morning newspaper

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

my goal is to make the tournament team for volleyball, i joined late so there’s only two left :P i really have to lock in the next couple of weeks and hopefully i can play for our last tournament at the end of april!! im so ready im on my grind #asf

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

@PUSH33N_LUVR i’m wondering do i go to urgent care or my pcp? the only problem with my pcp is that he knows i have an ed and i was in recovery the last time we met :P and that could cause a lot of problems. i prob wont go unless it gets really bad but i still dk what to do

[yoshi 🦖 follow limit @dewycals]

at what point is seeking medical attention necessary? i’m constantly dizzy and weak and nauseous and getting winded doing literally nothing and having heart palpitations but i don’t feel like it’s that bad like how do i know when i need to get checked out