back to 16 hour work days (and why comfort kills you)
each day passes and everything gets more blurry. more detached. more progress.
money wise. body wise. girls wise.
and it's stupidly easy once you accept the cost.
200mg moda. 40mg bromantane. 20mg tadalafil.
black coffee mixed with 5g creatine, 5g glycine, 5g taurine, 400mg l-theanine, 400mg l-tyrosine.
you'll operate on levels normal people will never experience.
it grows a god complex in you. and you keep feeding it.
in your mind you're the best. in reality? probably not.
but it doesn't matter. your mind directs you to the desired outcome.
you start moving like it's already true.
and you keep leveling up.
here's the thing nobody tells you.
i only grow in isolation. in pure suffering and discomfort.
the comfortable path never worked for me.
i can't sit with one girlfriend and €1,000 in my bank account.
it makes me sick.
because there's no edge.
edge is the only thing that makes you feel alive.
hedge fund manager on adderall burning through 90 hour weeks? edge.
business owner with 20 employees about to go bankrupt? edge.
trader managing 2 million in capital who could lose it all on one bad decision? edge.
when you're not on the edge it feels... off.
like you're watching yourself live instead of actually living.
i realized this when i stopped pretending.
i used to laugh because they laughed.
felt bad because they felt bad.
i thought i had emotions until i realized i was just imitating them.
one day i just... stopped.
the mask slipped. and there was nothing left to play.
just an empty void that cares about nothing besides the work.
and that's when i got dangerous.
because when you stop caring what people think, you stop being predictable.
when you're not seeking approval, you can't be controlled.
when comfort doesn't satisfy you, failure doesn't scare you.
the edge becomes your baseline.
you stop speaking to normal people.
for what? to hear about their weekend?
there's no point. no benefit. only more noise in the brain.
you cut off everyone who isn't operating at your level.
not because you're "better than them," because their frequency pulls you down.
and you need every ounce of mental bandwidth for the work.
16 hour work weeks feel like 6 hours when you're in this state.
6 hours of sleep feels like 2 because your mind is full of noise.
but you don't stop.
you keep stacking the cognitive enhancers.
keep feeding the god complex.
keep pushing into the void.
because the alternative is comfortable mediocrity.
and comfortable mediocrity is death.
most people reading this will think, "this sounds unhealthy."
they're right.
it is.
but healthy people don't build empires.
healthy people work 9-5 and retire at 65 with €200k in savings.
i'd rather burn out at 25 with €2M and a god complex than fade into comfort.
at least i felt something.
here's what i learned.
progress requires edge.
edge requires discomfort.
discomfort requires killing the part of you that needs to feel normal.
once you kill that part? there's no ceiling.
just you and the void.
and the void always wins.
but you can squeeze a fuckton of money out of it before it does.
stay in the void
- dex7
get a ton of armodafinil with bromantane for work.
add something like tretinoin for your skin.
for sleep, glycine, l-theanine, etc. (go to the research chemical section if your sleep is really fucked).
add some steroids if you really want to go hard.
a sprinkle of reta to get the veins out.
some tadalafil for the chicks and blood flow.
some whitening strips for the teeth.
recover like a king with dihexa and cerebrolysin.
and the top of the cherry is buying it all from india pharma. get a yearly supply. it's dirt cheap.
chill your nuts.
wait 3-6 months.
and your life is changed.
It's so easy that it's already boring for me.
not medical advice (life advice)
I didn’t buy from IndiaMART.
you saw one screenshot and started writing my obituary in the comments.
UGL can be underdosed. dirty. fake. that’s the game.
but acting like your favorite “trusted vendor” isn’t just a dropshipper with better lighting is insane.
bloodwork > vendor worship.
mirror > comment section doctors.
you don’t know your source either.
you just like the branding.
pass the controller if you don’t want to play.
the kiss happened before the kiss
recognition is the highest form of persuasion.
45 hours awake, I never sleep, never eat.
seduced by different kinds of chemicals.
one gram of gear. a big collection of peptides and a few soviet pharma stimulants.
close to everything that the book has.
whole pharmacy in my room.
they say there is no long term study. you smile and say nothing. they don't understand.
they don't even know the mechanism of the substance and stay on the couch drinking 5 beers while slowly moving to the left side... they see their obese wife.
you don't have to.
every study is made by giving a healthy 25 year old man a substance. from there it all goes with how you feel.
that's all a study is. you go and try something. if it works, it stays. if not, it goes.
every human runs on different genes. some are identical but never exactly the same.
which is great for us. you have a full list of things you try and see which works and which does not.
and really, that's how the mind works. sales. girls. same game.
it's a game of feeling.
break it down to the core principle.
in marketing. problem = solving the problem.
that's what they tell you.
just solve a problem. it's true to some extent.
but how can you solve a problem better?
by speed.
now if we link the feeling to it...
just imagine an AI robot buying things. it doesn't matter to him. there are no facial expressions. no shame. no status. no image in the head.
walks in and goes out like it's nothing.
now imagine someone seeing the nice color and brand symbol.
and the 100k follower count linked to a product that solves all his problems.
there is a feeling linked, and feelings make people loyal to someone.
solving a problem that doesn't include any kind of feeling is nothing.
“people buy with emotions and justify it with logic.”
we are dealing with humans that have the most complex brain, more than any species.
which means more pathways to manipulate the emotions.
there were experiments about this.
they go into a room. there sits a doctor. someone with authority.
they have to sit in a chair and turn up the voltage. behind the wall is an actor that screams in pain.
he begs to stop because he might die. but the doctor, the authority figure, tells him to keep going.
that was the rule. you have to keep pushing it.
until the symbol that signals death.
69% of them went until the end.
most of the others stopped right before it.
the feeling overrode the rational brain part. it doesn't become something you do anymore. it gets transmuted into something you can't control.
that's why a big influencer with a following base gets the deal to promote different kinds of clothes, supplements, casinos.
he is the authority telling them to keep pushing the big lever down.
they follow.
“The customer is not a moron. She’s your wife.” — Ogilvy
it's a simple game.
abusing substances because I get a feeling.
but the feeling doesn't own me.
it serves me.
the picture stays. they're unconscious.
you never sleep. you see the gaps they don't.
never forget.
- dex "7even"
you have no excuses.
stop fucking coping and start living.
research until your eyes bleed.
do whatever it takes once in your life.
jump straight into the rabbit hole. grow the self and stop listening to other people. you already have everything.
it's right in front of you.
never forget
get a ton of armodafinil with bromantane for work.
add something like tretinoin for your skin.
for sleep, glycine, l-theanine, etc. (go to the research chemical section if your sleep is really fucked).
add some steroids if you really want to go hard.
a sprinkle of reta to get the veins out.
some tadalafil for the chicks and blood flow.
some whitening strips for the teeth.
recover like a king with dihexa and cerebrolysin.
and the top of the cherry is buying it all from india pharma. get a yearly supply. it's dirt cheap.
chill your nuts.
wait 3-6 months.
and your life is changed.
It's so easy that it's already boring for me.
not medical advice (life advice)