𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜

dont mind me, im just venting here.

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

When he told you he want to break up but he had never experienced the feeling of a neee to rip your own fucking face apart because you hate what you see

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Watching pretty girls while looking so disgusting is so painful

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

That feeling when someone had taken a picture of you and you realize you are totally disgusting and everything you were trying to accept about yourself is gone and you feel totally ashamed, disguted, trying not to rip your face apart

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Tommorow is my bday. I dont know what im still doing here

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

I feel so suicidal

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Im sorry

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

You dont even know how much i love you

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

I think its really rime for me to go

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

also i hate opening to people so maybe this is my fault👍🏻

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Im a therapist to every fucking one but nothing more, right?

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

My sister is the worse of them. Shes bodyshaming everyone, swear at everyone, laughing at everyone. She even STOLE my money with my mum approval, BECAUSE THEY KNEW I WOULDNT AGREE WITH BUYING HER A NEW HOODIE WHEN SHE IS TREATING ME LIKE A SHIT. My opinion is joke to everyone?

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Im dont have a feelings, right?

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

Am I a joke to everyone?

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

and everybody in this fucking world are always reminding me that my problems are only my problems and theres no one to help me

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

The worse thing about this is that even I think about killing myself so often, i cannot talk to anybody. My whole family always remind me in very disgusting traumatic way that they will sent me to mental hospital. Even when i just have a panic attack, they will just trigger me

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

And even if there is a few people i can vent to, i would never done that

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

I dont have friends

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

and my boyfiend just cannot take my issues in every way, because he cannot handle it

[𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚑📜 @diebyyourside]

laugh at me