tbf i’ve had attitude problems n anger issues n hated authority since like 5th grade so they shld have known i had a disorder otw?? but omggg i miss olvany we were such an annoying n chaotic duo i need 2 txt my old friends
guess i did have it until like 3rd grade n im just upset i had it, lost it, cant remember any of it, n now my dads gone n am left with my mom n stepdad that fundamentally ruined me as a teenager even tho they’re (kind of) trying to help now
i wld rather explode n die then have children but i get random baby fever every time i watch kiyomi n micah on yt i want to live vicariously thru my kids one day as bad as that is but like i mean it in a good way i want the family i couldn’t have
it’s so sad going abt my day n just hearing smth my dad wld like or do or seeing a car he wld like or smth n i cant show him like god damnit n. i hate living here alone without him im so used to walking out of my room and him being there
if a website asks me for a verification code and i check my email and it's not in there within 0.1 picosecond of the request i roar and swing my arms madly and start hurting those close to me