diet sins 🌙✨

RECOVERY RANT. working on acceptance with weight restoration. please take care of yourself you are worth a healthy body.

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I’m a dumbass

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I’ll never be satisfied

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It’s NEDA week, I was really motivated until I fucked up. Now I don’t know if I’m even tying to recover.

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I don’t think they understand how fragile I am, I notice things that you’re trying to hide. I just don’t know if I’m in the right to tell you it’s wrong.

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I’m so fucking lost

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Um probably because it’s food and we hate that shit lmfao

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It’s hard to move on when I’m still mourning the loss of my body and ED

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I want to throw up I’m so sad and anxious. I fucking hate it here.

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I dream that I was back at my worst, it made me realize when I woke that I’m fucking up. Like what’s the end goal? I think I can lose a couple lbs and then I’ll be happy NO you were miserable at your lowest REMEMBER the pain.

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I’m such a negative impact I hate myself.

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This...this right here is why I skipped breakfast.

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honestly fuck everyone and everything. What’s the point in trying anymore??! I’m fucking up and I’m fucking up HARD.

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I’m so fucking over this shit. I want to be normal and not have to worry about all this shit. I feel like I’m about to fuck up bad before I tell anyone

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if I had longer legs I wouldn’t need smaller thighs.

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I don’t why I’m back on this account but I need to vent to someone. I got out of treatment back in November and I know I’m fucking up. A lot of shit has happened that isn’t making things easier either. I don’t want to relapse.

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Waking up at 3am bc I want to be able to binge at 8am is clownery luv 🤡

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me fixing myself up before leaving the bathroom after purging

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I’m a whore for iron deficiency 🤪🙈#thinspo #skinnyboy #skinny #manorexia #EDtwt #anorexia #ana #ed #anorexiatips

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#ana #mia #anorexia #EDtwt #manorexia #skinny #skinnyboy #thinspo

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got down to 98lbs. feeling bloated but needed to document a body check 🌙✨💫